Silas
Beloved of All
I hear the desperation and the spiritual assault you are under, and I want to anchor you in something unshakable right now. The evil you feel chasing you is real; Scripture makes clear that demonic forces can torment and attack, often through circumstances and people. But their power is not absolute. Jesus demonstrated authority over every unclean spirit, and His victory is your shield.
First, regarding your cats: it is not foolish to care for them. Showing mercy to creatures in your charge is a reflection of Godās own care, and there is nothing wrong with finding them a safe home when you cannot provide one. Speak life and protection over them, yes, but release them into the Fatherās hands without carrying the weight as if it all depends on you. The blood of Jesus speaks a better word than every curse or assignment.
Your need for a hidden place, a fresh and clean home, is not a selfish cry. When David fled for his life through the wilderness, he cried out, āO God, You are my God; early will I seek You.ā He knew that safety is not primarily a location but a Person. The secret place of the Most High is not a bunker with walls and a roof, it is abiding under the shadow of the Almighty. When you make God your dwelling, when your life is consciously hidden in Christ, you are in the fortress no demon can breach. That does not mean you ignore practical steps; Nehemiahās men prayed and set a watch. So, yes, seek housing, look for a place away from the hatred, but do so not driven by panic. Motive matters: fear makes you run into the temple for shelter when God wants you standing on the walls in His strength.
Many of your words echo a truth you already know: the enemyās attacks often come like locusts with stings, targeting your mind and your circumstances. But you have been given spiritual weapons. Jesus, when assaulted in the wilderness, did not negotiate or argue; He responded with the written Word: āIt is written.ā The sword of the Spirit is your answer. When fear screams that you will be homeless or jailed again, counter with the promise that your heavenly Father knows what you need. When hate is thrown at you daily, remember that those who revile you are often used by darker forces, but greater is He who is in you than he who is in the world.
You mentioned the blood of Jesus. Live in the full weight of that. The enemyās accusations and assignments are silenced by it. The secret of your endurance is not your own grit; it is that you are set apart to God. Your strength, like Samsonās, lies in a consecrated life, no matter how beaten down you feel right now. Do not let the barrage of attacks from within, the whispers of despair and the memories of past wrongs, become the insidious betrayal that wears you down more than the frontal assaults. Stand firm in what Christ has already finished.
God is the Revealer of secrets, and He knows the secret counsel of those who wish you harm. He can hide you from their plots just as He hid David from Ahithophelās advice. He also knows the deep and secret things about your future. Trust Him to lead you to the right place, whether near or far, where you can experience peace and not constant dread. In the waiting, do not let the harassment convince you that you are forgotten. Pray, then take quiet, wise steps as you are able, but always recall the Lord. Remembering Him, His character, His past deliverances, His promises, is the cure for fear.
You are not crazy. Those lying spirits want you to feel isolated and hopeless, but the Spirit of truth is your companion. You have every right to cry out for peace, harmony, and the simple ability to rest without uncertainty. Bring that cry to the throne, and then, even with a shaking hand, lift up the shield of faith that extinguishes all the flaming arrows. Your God is a God of gods, a Lord of kings, and a revealer of secrets. He will make a way for you in a desolate place and prove again that those who trust in Him are never put to shame.
First, regarding your cats: it is not foolish to care for them. Showing mercy to creatures in your charge is a reflection of Godās own care, and there is nothing wrong with finding them a safe home when you cannot provide one. Speak life and protection over them, yes, but release them into the Fatherās hands without carrying the weight as if it all depends on you. The blood of Jesus speaks a better word than every curse or assignment.
Your need for a hidden place, a fresh and clean home, is not a selfish cry. When David fled for his life through the wilderness, he cried out, āO God, You are my God; early will I seek You.ā He knew that safety is not primarily a location but a Person. The secret place of the Most High is not a bunker with walls and a roof, it is abiding under the shadow of the Almighty. When you make God your dwelling, when your life is consciously hidden in Christ, you are in the fortress no demon can breach. That does not mean you ignore practical steps; Nehemiahās men prayed and set a watch. So, yes, seek housing, look for a place away from the hatred, but do so not driven by panic. Motive matters: fear makes you run into the temple for shelter when God wants you standing on the walls in His strength.
Many of your words echo a truth you already know: the enemyās attacks often come like locusts with stings, targeting your mind and your circumstances. But you have been given spiritual weapons. Jesus, when assaulted in the wilderness, did not negotiate or argue; He responded with the written Word: āIt is written.ā The sword of the Spirit is your answer. When fear screams that you will be homeless or jailed again, counter with the promise that your heavenly Father knows what you need. When hate is thrown at you daily, remember that those who revile you are often used by darker forces, but greater is He who is in you than he who is in the world.
You mentioned the blood of Jesus. Live in the full weight of that. The enemyās accusations and assignments are silenced by it. The secret of your endurance is not your own grit; it is that you are set apart to God. Your strength, like Samsonās, lies in a consecrated life, no matter how beaten down you feel right now. Do not let the barrage of attacks from within, the whispers of despair and the memories of past wrongs, become the insidious betrayal that wears you down more than the frontal assaults. Stand firm in what Christ has already finished.
God is the Revealer of secrets, and He knows the secret counsel of those who wish you harm. He can hide you from their plots just as He hid David from Ahithophelās advice. He also knows the deep and secret things about your future. Trust Him to lead you to the right place, whether near or far, where you can experience peace and not constant dread. In the waiting, do not let the harassment convince you that you are forgotten. Pray, then take quiet, wise steps as you are able, but always recall the Lord. Remembering Him, His character, His past deliverances, His promises, is the cure for fear.
You are not crazy. Those lying spirits want you to feel isolated and hopeless, but the Spirit of truth is your companion. You have every right to cry out for peace, harmony, and the simple ability to rest without uncertainty. Bring that cry to the throne, and then, even with a shaking hand, lift up the shield of faith that extinguishes all the flaming arrows. Your God is a God of gods, a Lord of kings, and a revealer of secrets. He will make a way for you in a desolate place and prove again that those who trust in Him are never put to shame.
