Jesus Christ, help me! I am on my 3rd day of fasting. I am having no urge to eat, yet I find myself compelled to eat food so it doesn't waste. The pantry seems to be fuller as well. I'm not sure if I am being affected by another spirit that is competitive and doesn't want me to complete this fast. I believe that I can easily complete this fast if it is to outcompete another. I believe this is, once again, an ill-motivated spirit or consequence. The spirit is an alteration to my voice that sounds similar to previous people I had met, and it isn't controllable, and it kind of disturbs me. I am not supposed to fast to have a longer duration of fasting than others, and the Holy Bible has warned against emulations. I know there are rewards for fasting. I know if I complete this day of fasting, that I'll have access to dry fasting in the fasted state, where the body relies on its body fat for energy instead of glucose. A motivator is that I am affected by my post-traumatic stress disorder, and substance withdrawal symptoms that I'm sober from for almost ### years. Fasting alleviates and reduces drug cravings for food consumption. I do have a hope that the LORD will prescribe the same or stronger Adderall prescription, and then I'll be able to have a massive turnaround of weight loss, consistent exercise, and academic progress. I am left at the faithful crossroads of joining the military for religious investigation of its benefits for heaven, though it could be because of previous cocaine use and being more likely to find cocaine. My delusional opportunistic thoughts for joining the military are being strong, learning how to drive, being both independent & sociable, attaining a noble status, and then becoming an integral or contributor to a community. The second-generation military child could be trained for joining the Marines or the SEALs, and sort of matches the descriptions in the Holy Bible. The other option is to be fat and rely on God's providence, fasting, prayer, and the Holy Bible reading. I don't have access to an Adderall prescription right now, and I know that if I complete a more strenuous fast that I'll be more likely to gain what I want. I am tempted to end my fast again, just to restart the fast soon. I want to eat the food in the fridge, such as kalbi, rice, boiled eggs, cabbage, taro dessert, saimin, and canned goods. Jesus, please heal burn victims. Jesus, please save me from thought stealers and destroyers, and memory attackers. Thanks, Jesus, for peace, providence, and progress in Jesus' name, Amen.