unbearable life

My life has become unbearable because of Satanic people constantly gaslighting me. Sometimes pray to die because the abuse is so incredibly bad. Its hurting my release with The Lord. Sometimes I believe Jesus really really HATES me because of the constant abuse that I deal with.

Dear Lord. I feel like I'm spending my last few days here. Spiritual bondage and confusion has taken a toll on us Lord. I am forced to do some things that I don't want to buy I can't help it doesn't feel right o know I'm sorry for hurting you. My son is important to me but Lord when I look at...