state of the world

I'm so upset about the state of the world and am getting depressed about many things. I feel sick also. I'm an ### and I am not selling. Please help people be drawn to my work. I need financial blessings. My fiance is out of state for work and I haven't seen him in so long. I'm worried about him...

Summary (due to privacy): A person expresses feelings of despair and a desire to end their life, citing dissatisfaction with life, the state of the world, and perceived hypocrisy in religious beliefs. They express a lack of hope and a plea for relief from their suffering.