readiness to go

If you really care about me, you will have mercy on me and end my pain, preferably peacefully, painlessly and without anyone going with me. I'm so ready to go. Please take me.

There's really no reason for me to be here anymore. I'm a burden and in emotional pain. I'm afraid and purposeless. If you are paying attention, you know about upcoming events in my household and what would be good timing for my demise. I hope it is tonight, or right after that event you know...