end my life

Please help me end my life. I've begged you multiple times daily for over a year now to take me and you've left me here to suffer. You don't care, or don't exist. So I have to do it myself. So I guess this prayer is a last ditch effort to get help from you.

I put a prayer request for satan to kill me in my sleep, and I'm tragically still alive. I woke up with 5 bad lucks being: loud noise from a lawn mower, almost falling from weights on the floor, loud noise from a vehicle while I'm in the restroom, pleasure from scratching an unwanted scratch...