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Let them come to know........Praise God.

With the high possibility of what my purpose has been for the last 3 years to come crumbling down around me, I have a LOT to think about. I'm not fearful of change. I know that the Lord has my best interest in mind. I think what I am most fearful of is the emotion that comes with it. It's going to be sad. Depressing. Confusing. I hate facing my emotions. And I'll be honest, I am extremely overwhelmed to take on the responsibility of moving. Ugh. Storage will be needed. Deposits. Rental application fees...... Oh and then that whole waiting process. Waiting for the D.A., waiting for court dates, waiting for a judgement. I hate uncertainty. "Pray about it" they all say. Ok, I've been praying, I've been worshiping. All I have left...

Today has been extremely rough. The uncertainty has really gotten to me and I haven't been accepting it nearly as well as I was yesterday. I'm terrified. Everything could very well fall apart. I wish I could go back to yesterday when I was freely accepting God's will. Now I'm just scared. And it all comes down to the girls. If they go back to living with their mom they will go back to endure unstable environments, switching schools, and abusive boyfriends. Her manipulation may very well allow that to come to pass.... but see there I go putting the future in HER hands and not God's. What is wrong with me?! GET THEE BEHIND ME SATAN! ugh!! I feel like I just want to get away and spend like 2 weeks just meditating, praying...

I am so beyond thankful for the way the Lord is sustaining me through all of this. I think I have finally realized (with his grace of course) that no matter what happens, I will be ok! And honestly, I think I am at a point where I am just so tired of worrying about the same situation over and over and over and over again. When in reality, it's not mine to worry about. The Lord can so easily pull me completely out of this situation and let those who's trouble it really truly is fend for themselves and force them to lean completely on them. It is very very possible that I am only temporary in the lives of these children and their father. And somehow, unlike before, I'm totally fine with that. The Lord knows what I can handle and what I...

Nothing more...nothing less...but unto the Holy Spirit within...

What a mind blowing last few days. And not in a good way. between 2 seperate legal matters my fiance is facing and then catching him in an extremely compromising situation two days later, I'm..... defeated. I have nothin else left but to fall to my knees and turn my eyes to God. He has prepared me for this. I have called out to Him and doubted him so many times before this and every single time He has prevailed. The only differnce this time should be that I've been through it enough to not worry. Be still. Not lean on my own understands but in all ways acknowledge Him. Know that He alone is God. Seek Him first. Trust that his will is perfect and all things will work together no matter how awful they seem at the time. He has me and...

Dear stander, you have been chosen by Our Heavenly Father according to His will and purpose for your life. Your prodigal spouse is an integral part of God’s will for your life and family. You are on assignment to stand in the gap for your loved ones and to pray God’s will in and over their lives. Once I understood that my only chance of marriage restoration was to be totally in God’s will, I began to enjoy the privilege of standing for the salvation of my entire family. As for me and my house, we shall serve the Lord. (Joshua 24:15) When we experience the death of our covenant marriage, it seems natural to make burial plans. This, to the world, is part of the process of dealing with the loss. But God told me I am not of the...

LORD, DIRECT MY STEPS This is what the LORD says — your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel: “I am the LORD your God, who teaches you what is best for you, who directs you in the way you should go.†Isaiah 48:17 Is your heart's cry today, “Lord, direct my steps! Please show me what You want me to do regarding my marriage? How do I handle my children and their behaviors? Everyone is telling me to divorce my spouse as the children will be better off than now. Lord, help me.†In my distress I called to the LORD; I cried to my God for help. From his temple he heard my voice; my cry came before him, into his ears. Psalm 18:6 Will you seek God’s will for your marriage? Here is a prayer to pray on this Lord's Day: Lord, I praise...

HIS GRACE IS SUFFICIENT To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.†Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. 2 Corinthians 12:7-10 This passage is probably very familiar to you. Our Pastor has been preaching from Corinthians and recently, we found...

TEN THINGS ABOUT STANDING - Part 2 So be careful to do what the LORD your God has commanded you; do not turn aside to the right or to the left. Walk in all the way that the LORD your God has commanded you, so that you may live and prosper and prolong your days in the land that you will possess. Deuteronomy 5:32-33 I want to continue to share with you the final points about standing from yesterday’s devotional. This could also be titled, “Why Stand?†These insights into standing with God and praying for marriage restoration His way are not a complete list, but they are, in my book, the top ten: 6. The dilemma of divorced and dating can be disastrous, but can be detoured. Those who live according to the sinful nature have their...