Today I asked some girls if they would go to the county fair with me. All of them turned me down. I left and kept my composure long enough to get into my car and drive home. Then all you know what broke loose. I walked back to the back room to talk to my dad for a bit, I told him what happened. I was angry, and upset because I thought for sure the people I asked would not turn me down. I even offered to pay if they came with me. They still said no. So I went upstairs to my room and started reading some scriptures that I thought would help calm me down, but then I shut the book and I masturbated. I had not done that in two weeks, I was trying to quit, but today, I just could not take it. I cracked. Then I just felt guilty. I immediately...