My parents say there is a good posibility I could meet a girl who would be interested in courting me at a christmas party. Problem is, even if she is, I'm not really ready, or at least I don't feel adiquatly prepared if things take off. I'm afraid to expect anything to come of this, but I know I have abad habbit of doing so, sometimes before I realize I did. Sometimes I get so excited and then things go south and it's like falling from the top of a cliff that I was just about to scale. If I don't go and this girl shows up, I'll kick myself for not taking the chance, if I do show up but nothing comes of it, I'll be even more disapointed. I feel like a loser, because some of the women at the chuch are doing this for me and I didn't even...