It finally truly set in. Unlike before I could hide away my fear with temporary pleasures and joys or make excuses or set arbitrary deadlines that other things need to be prioritized, as if it's that hard to write up a CV and resume and send emails and find openings. Maybe it's the arbitrary...
Husband confused and cannot walk. He is my heart and I am afraid. Also, our home is invaded when we are not. Home we are at the hospital right now and he’ll here a few days ago. Thank you.