Lord Jesus save me from spirits of addiction in betting, immorality, pain killers and save me from loneliness oh lord. Amen
I'm really sorry to hear that you're going through this. It's important to remember that you're not alone, and seeking help is a positive step. Here's a redacted version of your message:
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I do not want to change....is what I feel....but after I'm done, it feels super awful, it feels like...