We hear the deep anguish in your heart, and we want you to know that your life has immense value in the eyes of God. The pain you’re expressing is real, and we take it seriously, but we must respond with truth and love rooted in Scripture. You mention Jesus’ name, and that is where we must begin—because in Him alone is hope, purpose, and true freedom.
First, we must rebuke the spirit of despair and hopelessness that seeks to convince you that your life has no meaning or that destruction is the only answer. The enemy comes to steal, kill, and destroy, but Jesus came that you may have life and have it abundantly (John 10:10). Your life is not yours to end—it belongs to God, who created you with purpose and loves you beyond measure. "For you formed my inmost being. You knit me together in my mother’s womb. I will give thanks to you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made" (Psalm 139:13-14). Even in your pain, God sees you, knows you, and has a plan for you.
You speak of feeling bound, as if you have no freedom or ability to make choices. While it is true that we live in a fallen world where sin and brokenness affect our relationships and circumstances, God has given us the gift of free will—not to be enslaved by others, but to choose Him and His ways. "It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery" (Galatians 5:1). If you are in a situation where others are controlling or manipulating you, we must pray for wisdom, strength, and courage to set godly boundaries. You are not powerless—you have the Holy Spirit living within you, and He empowers you to walk in freedom.
You also mention a desire to "get off all government stuff," which may reflect frustration with systems or authorities in your life. While we are called to respect governing authorities (Romans 13:1), we also know that our ultimate citizenship is in heaven (Philippians 3:20). If you are feeling oppressed or overwhelmed by earthly systems, we must pray for God’s guidance and provision. He is your ultimate provider and protector, and He can make a way where there seems to be no way.
The mention of relationships being destroyed is heartbreaking, and we must address the root of this pain. If you are in a relationship that is toxic or sinful—whether it involves manipulation, abuse, or ungodly influences—we must pray for deliverance and healing. God does not desire for you to be yoked with those who seek to harm you. "Do not be unequally yoked with unbelievers, for what fellowship have righteousness and iniquity? Or what fellowship has light with darkness?" (2 Corinthians 6:14). If this is the case, we must pray for God to break any ungodly soul ties and to restore you to wholeness in Him.
You also express a lack of success or fulfillment in life. We must remind you that true fulfillment is found in Christ alone, not in the world’s definition of success. "But seek first God’s Kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well" (Matthew 6:33). If you are feeling empty or unfulfilled, it may be because you are seeking validation or purpose in the wrong places. God has a unique calling for your life, and He will equip you to walk in it if you surrender to Him.
Now, we must address the most critical part of your request—the desire to be "deleted" or to have your life ended. This is not God’s will for you. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, and it is not the answer. God desires for you to live, to thrive, and to experience His love and peace. "The thief only comes to steal, kill, and destroy. I came that they may have life, and may have it abundantly" (John 10:10). We must rebuke the lies of the enemy that tell you your life has no value or that ending it is the only way out. Your life matters to God, and He has a purpose for you that only you can fulfill.
We also must address the language in your request. The use of symbols or coded language (such as "###") can sometimes be a sign of spiritual oppression or even demonic influence. We must pray for deliverance from any spirits of confusion, despair, or death that may be speaking to you. "For though we walk in the flesh, we don’t wage war according to the flesh; for the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh, but mighty before God to the throwing down of strongholds, throwing down imaginations and every high thing that is exalted against the knowledge of God, and bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ" (2 Corinthians 10:3-5).
Let us pray for you now:
Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts, lifting up this precious child of Yours who is in deep pain. Lord, we ask that You would break the chains of despair, hopelessness, and oppression that are weighing on their heart. We rebuke every spirit of death, destruction, and confusion in the mighty name of Jesus. We declare that this child’s life is not their own—it belongs to You, and You have a purpose and plan for them.
Father, we ask that You would pour out Your love and peace upon them. Let them feel Your presence in a tangible way, reminding them that they are never alone. Heal the wounds in their heart, Lord, and restore their hope. Give them the strength to set godly boundaries in their relationships and the wisdom to walk away from anything that is not of You.
We pray for deliverance from any toxic or ungodly influences in their life. Break every ungodly soul tie and set them free from manipulation or control. Lord, we ask that You would reveal Your purpose for their life and fill them with a renewed sense of hope and direction. Help them to seek You first in all things and to find their fulfillment in You alone.
Father, we ask that You would surround them with godly community—believers who will speak life, truth, and encouragement into their situation. Protect their mind from the lies of the enemy, and fill them with Your truth. We declare that no weapon formed against them will prosper, and every tongue that rises against them in judgment, You will condemn (Isaiah 54:17).
Lord, we ask that You would give them the courage to reach out for help—to talk to someone they trust, whether it be a pastor, counselor, or friend. Remind them that they do not have to carry this burden alone. We pray for divine intervention in their circumstances, that You would make a way where there seems to be no way.
Above all, Father, we ask that You would draw them closer to You. Let them experience Your love in a way they never have before. Renew their mind, restore their joy, and fill them with Your peace that surpasses all understanding. We thank You, Lord, that You are a God who hears our cries and answers our prayers. We trust You to work all things together for good for this child, for they are called according to Your purpose (Romans 8:28).
In the mighty name of Jesus, we pray. Amen.
If you are feeling this way, please know that you are not alone. Reach out to someone you trust—a pastor, a counselor, or a friend—and share what you’re going through. God has placed people in your life who care about you and want to help. You are loved, you are valued, and your life has purpose. Do not give up. Hold on to hope, for God is faithful, and He will see you through this storm. "Cast all your anxiety on him, because he cares for you" (1 Peter 5:7).