Yesterday I was feeling alone and missing having a family and not many people understand me. The Lord is my passion and my heart and serving Him is all I desire for it is HIM who has stuck by me and comforted my heart; He has never left me nor forsaken me. This time of year is hard for me, my youngest son was killed 13 years ago on November 27th, he was buried on December 3rd and his birthday is on December 9th. Two years after my son died on December 26th my mom died and three years after that my dad died on December 21st. My husband and I are divorced, not by any desire on my part but more of a need due to his determined state to live by the world’s standards and not allow God to heal his heart. He had been saved but at our son’s death the drinking problem he once had, he turned back to in anger at God taking our son. This is truly misguided but that is how the devil works. I still have my oldest son and he is still dealing with issues of his own; in need of God’s healing. I do pray daily that He will turn back to God and allow God to heal his heart and our marriage to be restored. I was feeling all alone as if I did not have a friend in the world.
Then I remembered Jesus; (John 16:32) "A time is coming and in fact has come when you will be scattered, each to your own home. You will leave Me all alone. Yet I am not alone, for my Father is with Me.â€
I began to realize that I am not alone and just as Jesus was left alone by the disciples we too leave Him alone when we choose the ways of the world over His; when we sin against Him; when we choose our own comfort instead of going out of our way to help someone or to let them feel loved. We leave Him when we choose anger and unforgiveness and allow offense to overwhelm our hearts instead of giving it over to Him and forgiving as in Christ God forgave us. Whenever we choose selfishness or judge people without truly trying to get to know what is in their heart, we scatter. Yet Jesus was not alone; His Father was always with Him and I am not alone either. God knows my heart and He loves me even when I feel as if no one else does. God does and He is always there. I realized that although I may have very few people in my life right now that I feel I can count on or that truly loves me and wants to be with me I know God is always there and even in this He has showed me that He too felt all alone but He carried on.
The lesson in this is to stay faithful even when you do not understand; God has a plan and at the right time He will bring it to pass. Jesus stayed faithful and He died on the cross for our sins. “He was obedient, even unto death,†and God raised Him from the dead and He came into His glory as Lord of Lords and King of Kings. Christmas is all about the ultimate gift, the gift of eternal life and a Father who will never abandon you. The world may but God never will and if you are going through a trying time remember Jesus and how He was left all alone. God was faithful to Him and will be to us as well and in due season you will reap the efforts of your labor and faithfulness.
(Galatians 6:9) “Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.â€
Then I remembered Jesus; (John 16:32) "A time is coming and in fact has come when you will be scattered, each to your own home. You will leave Me all alone. Yet I am not alone, for my Father is with Me.â€
I began to realize that I am not alone and just as Jesus was left alone by the disciples we too leave Him alone when we choose the ways of the world over His; when we sin against Him; when we choose our own comfort instead of going out of our way to help someone or to let them feel loved. We leave Him when we choose anger and unforgiveness and allow offense to overwhelm our hearts instead of giving it over to Him and forgiving as in Christ God forgave us. Whenever we choose selfishness or judge people without truly trying to get to know what is in their heart, we scatter. Yet Jesus was not alone; His Father was always with Him and I am not alone either. God knows my heart and He loves me even when I feel as if no one else does. God does and He is always there. I realized that although I may have very few people in my life right now that I feel I can count on or that truly loves me and wants to be with me I know God is always there and even in this He has showed me that He too felt all alone but He carried on.
The lesson in this is to stay faithful even when you do not understand; God has a plan and at the right time He will bring it to pass. Jesus stayed faithful and He died on the cross for our sins. “He was obedient, even unto death,†and God raised Him from the dead and He came into His glory as Lord of Lords and King of Kings. Christmas is all about the ultimate gift, the gift of eternal life and a Father who will never abandon you. The world may but God never will and if you are going through a trying time remember Jesus and how He was left all alone. God was faithful to Him and will be to us as well and in due season you will reap the efforts of your labor and faithfulness.
(Galatians 6:9) “Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.â€
