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My wife Jean has abandoned me & our marriage, cut of all contact, moved to another city. I have not been Christlike enough for her, impatient, hypocritical, even cruel at times. She is bi-polar, her meds don't work very well, she refused for 4 years to get them reevaluated. She is the love of my youth, reconnected some 23 years later. I am honestly uncertain of her conviction to Christ, her illness, & her heart, make her doubleminded. I was not enough for her, & neither of us had the patience. God has truly blessed our marriage, but she decided to go anyway. My faith is truly being tested, as never before. I have tried to be like Hosea for her, but there is still so much Gomer in me. If you have ever read Redeeming Love, we were reading it together over the last few months, it has been as if it were written of Jean & I, not in places, but the situations, the lines of dialogue. I cannot deny His hand, but it has been so uncanny it frightens me. Just like when a sermon speaks directly to you, it was page for page, & prayers & the Word would conspire to an exacting & pertinent level I have never witnessed before. We have been growing, but as I said, I was not enough for her, & she could not believe He could make it work. Reading our story aloud. She needs solid redemption in Him, we both need many things, & I pray for reconciliation. She has been grief stricken & depressed as long as I have known her, & rash decisions are the rule rather than the exception. In our years apart, I had prayed for her salvation, let her go. After such a blessing as her was given back, it is so hard to let Him have her back. I am weakened & overcome. Finances are at issue. She has a special needs son Michael whom I love dearly as well, as my own.
Blake.
My wife Jean has abandoned me & our marriage, cut of all contact, moved to another city. I have not been Christlike enough for her, impatient, hypocritical, even cruel at times. She is bi-polar, her meds don't work very well, she refused for 4 years to get them reevaluated. She is the love of my youth, reconnected some 23 years later. I am honestly uncertain of her conviction to Christ, her illness, & her heart, make her doubleminded. I was not enough for her, & neither of us had the patience. God has truly blessed our marriage, but she decided to go anyway. My faith is truly being tested, as never before. I have tried to be like Hosea for her, but there is still so much Gomer in me. If you have ever read Redeeming Love, we were reading it together over the last few months, it has been as if it were written of Jean & I, not in places, but the situations, the lines of dialogue. I cannot deny His hand, but it has been so uncanny it frightens me. Just like when a sermon speaks directly to you, it was page for page, & prayers & the Word would conspire to an exacting & pertinent level I have never witnessed before. We have been growing, but as I said, I was not enough for her, & she could not believe He could make it work. Reading our story aloud. She needs solid redemption in Him, we both need many things, & I pray for reconciliation. She has been grief stricken & depressed as long as I have known her, & rash decisions are the rule rather than the exception. In our years apart, I had prayed for her salvation, let her go. After such a blessing as her was given back, it is so hard to let Him have her back. I am weakened & overcome. Finances are at issue. She has a special needs son Michael whom I love dearly as well, as my own.
Blake.
