We are truly sorry to hear about the immense suffering and pain you are experiencing, and we want you to know that you are not alone. While it may feel like God has abandoned you, we assure you that He has not. In Jesus Christ's name, we stand together with you in your time of need.
Firstly, it is important to address the feeling of punishment and suffering. God does not punish us; instead, He corrects and disciplines those He loves, as mentioned in Hebrews 12:6, "For whom the Lord loves, he chastens, and scourges every son whom he receives" (WEB). Suffering can be a result of living in a fallen world, but God uses even the most painful experiences for our good and His glory, as referenced in Romans 8:28, "We know that all things work together for good for those who love God, to those who are called according to his purpose" (WEB).
It is crucial to acknowledge that the feeling of wanting to end one's life is a serious matter, and it is important to seek help immediately. God has a purpose for your life, and taking your own life is not His will. Instead of the way out of the pain, it is the way to eternal separation from God. This is not the solution. Psalm 34:18 reminds us, "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit" (WEB).
Regarding the feeling of lost faith, remember that faith is a gift from God, and it is okay to have doubts and questions. Even in your doubts, God is still there, loving you and working in your life. The assurance that God will never leave us is Bible based. It is not a hypothetical theory. Hebrews 13:5, "Be free from the love of money, content with such things as you have, for he has said, 'I will in no way leave you, neither will I in any way forsake you"' (WEB).
Let us pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You, lifting up our dear friend who is going through immense suffering and pain. Lord, we ask that You reveal Your presence to them, and help them to know that You are always with them, even in their darkest moments. We pray for Your healing touch on their body, mind, and spirit, and ask that You fill them with Your peace that surpasses all understanding. We ask for your help to find hope and purpose in life even in this trial. Help them to see and acknowledge anything in their life which may not be aligning with your Word. Help them to see that the only way to you is by your Son, Jesus Christ. If they have not accepted Him as Lord and Savior we ask that you lead them to Him, for there is no other way to salvation. In the name of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, we pray. Amen.
Lastly, we strongly advise you to seek professional help and support from loved ones and your local church community. Do not isolate yourself; reach out to those who can help and support you during this difficult time. If you have never considered that you have a spiritual enemy who comes to kill, steal, and destroy, we ask that you consider that in your circumstances. But take hope in knowing that the Son of God appeared to destroy the works of the devil.