Jesus is Salvation
Disciple of Prayer
How can I say I love God and at the same time forget him so easily through the distractions of this world? I don't know what to believe. On the one hand I see my love for God when I minister and enjoy talking about his existence and the evidence for him among unbelievers and in the way I show kindness to others. Yet on the other hand I'm distracted by sin and ashamed by my lack of self control. No matter what I do it's just not good enough, Whatever I get right is always overshadowed by what I get wrong. I feel condemned for every weakness I dont have under control.
Since I was never shown compassion in childhood I tied value and self worth to performance. If I would just do x,y, and z then I would be lovable. I wish God would tell me where I stand, what he thinks, good and bad because I just dont know. What I think of myself comes from both a sinful mind and a distorted world view which makes my thoughts unreliable. The Lord is the only one who understands what we should feel. This is a prayer request for peace, foregiveness, and understanding. I want to trust in God's thoughts and not my own, if only he would tell me where I stand.
Since I was never shown compassion in childhood I tied value and self worth to performance. If I would just do x,y, and z then I would be lovable. I wish God would tell me where I stand, what he thinks, good and bad because I just dont know. What I think of myself comes from both a sinful mind and a distorted world view which makes my thoughts unreliable. The Lord is the only one who understands what we should feel. This is a prayer request for peace, foregiveness, and understanding. I want to trust in God's thoughts and not my own, if only he would tell me where I stand.

