CuppyCakes
Disciple of Prayer
I know I have not been the Christian I can be and I am not sure if my reasons are legit or just excuses. We have been struggling financially for 2 years now but everyone I find the chance to get ahead a road block comes down. We moved so I could get a job and take care of my disabled mom but then I ended up in the hospital 2 days after the move with a ruptured colon. I have the surgery and figure I could start working but then a massive hernia stopped that. Now I have been told no more working AND 2 more surgeries this month. Mom is so stressful and so much work, daughter is mentally unstable hubby has BAD hip issues but if he doesn't work we don't survive. I applied for disability but that takes months. Out rent is late and this.month we don't know where it's coming from. My medical expenses and meds take most of our money. I won a thousand dollars on a radio contest, went to get check and no more than got home and 3 utilities got shut off, 2 are necessary 1 is not but the payments took all but 50. We were going to pay our rent ahead with that. My daughter hasn't had a Christmas in 2 years and no tree last year. We have had 11 surgeries 4 strokes and 2 serious car wrecks in these 2 years. I am so depressed I can barely function. So much needs done but too hard to face day in and day out. All the help I ask for is met with "so?". I don't know where to turn, I try to leave it to God but panic takes over. I can't not worry when it's all on my shoulders and we don't know if we will have a roof the next day. I need spiritual guidance and some help from the Lord. If its a test I am afraid with my health I won't live to be graded on it. My blood pressure is so dangerously high. I have tried all I can think of. God help us to help ourselves, lead me to the path please.
