ryanmiller79
Humble Prayer Partner
I want to have hope that my way of life will change but I am finding that where I am currently, socially, is a long shot to where I want to be. I have so much anxiety talking to people in general, not generally having anything to say, but even more I have anxiety approaching women with having them rejecting me for the things that I might say to them...either that or they might think that I am attempting to "hit on" them. I guess that comes from having too many rejections occur in my life leading me to think that I am not worth anything to anybody which I do not want. Having a strong desire to get married some day and having a recurrence of sexual sin is probably hindering me from going out and being social with women...I have such a strong desire of marriage that I usually cry after committing those sinful acts and doubting myself that since it has been essentially a struggle that I have had to deal with my whole life that there is no hope for me. Please pray that I would be released from this bondage Satan has had me wrapped in for so long so I can live a more free life.
