When I was around 14 (I'm now 20) I ...

[Anonymous]

When I was around 14 (I'm now 20) I had started (in one way or another) seeking God, I never seriously read the Bible, but I heard the Gospel, and thought myself a believer, though I never did see or feel a change in myself. One day at work, I had been having an emotionally tough day, and I was reading a Christian site about pride (pride has always been a part of me, sadly was my god) and when I read this page about pride I turned away from God, choosing my pride. And in that moment I felt something in my heart, like water dry up. I thought "did I screw up, did the Spirit of God leave me?" Not knowing what was happening, I prayed, and I told God I would return to the question of pride before going further. 45 minutes later I seen how foolish I was, and thought that was it, I continued believing I was saved, until the proof of my disbelief was revealed to me through the Word of God. So with fear of hell as my motivation, I've been seeking God trying to change, but now I believe God has told me that I've lost Him forever!

I've sought answers from others about Hebrews-6, but am still left with the fear and hopelessness of not knowing God. Have I really fallen away?! I know You can't answer this, but please pray for me.

 

[HeatherSmokey]

God, our help and assistance, who is just and merciful, and who hears the prayers of your people; look down upon me. a miserable sinner, have mercy upon me, and deliver me from the troubles that torment me, even though I might deserve them. Grant me, I pray, your divine helping grace; endow me with patience and strength to endure my tribulations with complete submission to your will. You know my misery and suffering and to you, my only hope and refuge, I flee for relief and comfort; trusting your infinite love and compassion, that in due time, when you know it is for the best, you will deliver me from my troubles, and turn my distress into comfort, and I will rejoice in your mercy, and exalt and praise your Holy Name, O Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, In Jesus Name Amen

 

[patty700]

you need only believe Jesus is Lord and died and paid for your sins,confess with your mouth and ask Jesus into your heart and fill you with his Holy Spirit.

 

[dcrandjr]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Glory to God]

praying with you in Jesus Christ precious name. amen