Anonymous
Beloved of All
When I was around 14 (I'm now 20) I had started (in one way or another) seeking God, I never seriously read the Bible, but I heard the Gospel, and thought myself a believer, though I never did see or feel a change in myself. One day at work, I had been having an emotionally tough day, and I was reading a Christian site about pride (pride has always been a part of me, sadly was my god) and when I read this page about pride I turned away from God, choosing my pride. And in that moment I felt something in my heart, like water dry up. I thought "did I screw up, did the Spirit of God leave me?" Not knowing what was happening, I prayed, and I told God I would return to the question of pride before going further. 45 minutes later I seen how foolish I was, and thought that was it, I continued believing I was saved, until the proof of my disbelief was revealed to me through the Word of God. So with fear of hell as my motivation, I've been seeking God trying to change, but now I believe God has told me that I've lost Him forever!
I've sought answers from others about Hebrews-6, but am still left with the fear and hopelessness of not knowing God. Have I really fallen away?! I know You can't answer this, but please pray for me.
I've sought answers from others about Hebrews-6, but am still left with the fear and hopelessness of not knowing God. Have I really fallen away?! I know You can't answer this, but please pray for me.