Anonymous
Beloved of All
When I was around 14(I'm now 19) I had started (in one way or another) seeking God, I never seriously read the Bible, but I heard the Gospel, and thought myself a believer, though I never seen/felt a change in myself. One day at work, I had been having an emotionally tough day, and I was reading a Christian site about pride (pride has always been a part of me, sadly my god was, and is my "pride") and when I read this page about pride I turned away from God, choosing my pride, and in that moment I felt something in my heart dry up. I thought "did I screw up, did the Spirit of God leave me?" not knowing what was happening, I prayed, and I told God I would return to the question of pride before going farther. 45 minutes later I seen how foolish I was, and thought that was it, I continued believing I was saved, until the proof of my disbelief was revealed to me. So with fear of hell as my motivation, and I've been seeking God trying to change, but now I believe God has told me that I lost Him forever, that it is impossible to brought back to repentance. I'm sorry this is so long, please pray for me! I need to know if this is true! Thank you for your help.