Heart75
Servant
When I see other kids receiving a lot of medals on their recognition day, I feel sad for my youngest daughter. She has relatively mild ASD and she's about 2yrs delayed for her age (she's currently 4). Although she could understand and has a sharp mind, she is still misunderstood because of her language barrier. I'm still working on her speech that I sent her to a language therapist and an occupational therapist for her socialization skills.
It really saddens me but the developmental doctor told me not to expect much from her because of her difficulty speaking. What we are going to work on is for her to catch up her age and be able to converse to others.
I know I should not compare her to others, much more to her older sister who is an achiever & a consistent honor student, I just can't help but feel sad for my little one. Sometimes I cannot help but ask the Lord why my daughter has this? I don't have any vices, I don't drink, I don't smoke, I don't take any pills or whatever. All I know is I care for children with special needs and maybe the Lord gave me one to take care of. But I just can't help but cry at times, even now while I'm writing this I'm teary-eyed.
If you see my daughter you will adore her. She's a beautiful thing, very lovable and gentle-mannered. You will not even notice something's different until you see her inside the class. She has her 'own' world at times but when she's called to answer her book or do her activities she complied and cooperated. She will also answer questions that she's able to identify and as long as the teachers are patient to wait for her answer, she will answer. But if they want her to be fast like her classmates, you cannot expect that from her.
I'm pouring all my sentiments here. I love my daughter so much but I don't know what else to do. I want to provide and give her anything but it's not that easy coz we are not that rich. My husband's salary is just enough to put food on the table, send kids to school, buy necessary clothes to wear & pay our monthly bills. We're even a bit lucky that we're able to send our youngest to therapists to think it's expensive here.
I pray that the Lord will have pity on us, most especially to my little one. I pray that she will be okay. And despite her disabilities, she would be able to catch up. Lately, I was a little bit heart-broken to see her receive 1 ribbon during her recognition day but the rest or her classmates received 6 or 8 ribbons with medals and they were all about academics. While my daughter only received a ribbon for completing her nursery level. Sad. But I know I have to accept the reality and just love my daughter whatever she turns out to be. But I have to be honest that it really broke my heart. I am only human. I am a mom who loves her daughter so much. I can't help but get hurt even though at times I've tried my best to accept things.
Please, Lord, help me not to get discourage. Help me to be strong for my child. You gave me such a beautiful girl. Please help my child also. I guess I am hoping for a miracle but they said that nothing's impossible on You, Lord. I just want my daughter to be able to have a conversation with us and understand things around her so that she can catch up. I'm not aiming for her to get 1st honor like her older sister. I'm just praying that she will be able to comprehend things around her, words that are spoken to her, be able to converse and be able to catch up socially on her own age.
It really saddens me but the developmental doctor told me not to expect much from her because of her difficulty speaking. What we are going to work on is for her to catch up her age and be able to converse to others.
I know I should not compare her to others, much more to her older sister who is an achiever & a consistent honor student, I just can't help but feel sad for my little one. Sometimes I cannot help but ask the Lord why my daughter has this? I don't have any vices, I don't drink, I don't smoke, I don't take any pills or whatever. All I know is I care for children with special needs and maybe the Lord gave me one to take care of. But I just can't help but cry at times, even now while I'm writing this I'm teary-eyed.
If you see my daughter you will adore her. She's a beautiful thing, very lovable and gentle-mannered. You will not even notice something's different until you see her inside the class. She has her 'own' world at times but when she's called to answer her book or do her activities she complied and cooperated. She will also answer questions that she's able to identify and as long as the teachers are patient to wait for her answer, she will answer. But if they want her to be fast like her classmates, you cannot expect that from her.
I'm pouring all my sentiments here. I love my daughter so much but I don't know what else to do. I want to provide and give her anything but it's not that easy coz we are not that rich. My husband's salary is just enough to put food on the table, send kids to school, buy necessary clothes to wear & pay our monthly bills. We're even a bit lucky that we're able to send our youngest to therapists to think it's expensive here.
I pray that the Lord will have pity on us, most especially to my little one. I pray that she will be okay. And despite her disabilities, she would be able to catch up. Lately, I was a little bit heart-broken to see her receive 1 ribbon during her recognition day but the rest or her classmates received 6 or 8 ribbons with medals and they were all about academics. While my daughter only received a ribbon for completing her nursery level. Sad. But I know I have to accept the reality and just love my daughter whatever she turns out to be. But I have to be honest that it really broke my heart. I am only human. I am a mom who loves her daughter so much. I can't help but get hurt even though at times I've tried my best to accept things.
Please, Lord, help me not to get discourage. Help me to be strong for my child. You gave me such a beautiful girl. Please help my child also. I guess I am hoping for a miracle but they said that nothing's impossible on You, Lord. I just want my daughter to be able to have a conversation with us and understand things around her so that she can catch up. I'm not aiming for her to get 1st honor like her older sister. I'm just praying that she will be able to comprehend things around her, words that are spoken to her, be able to converse and be able to catch up socially on her own age.
