Lovingmommy
Disciple of Prayer
I am a ### year old female also the mother of 4 beautiful children, I lost my dad in ### and my grandmother (mom) in ### they were the most important people in my life and they were taken sudden, there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of them it's been a struggle...I used to be ### lbs and pregnant ### at the max. I am now ### lbs and not ever feeling good I have anxiety so bad and I stress more than you can imagine I often wonder who thinks about death as much as I do. Everything I do there it is! It is really taking a toll on me. I just don't know how to cope. My husband is a drinker & and an occasional drug user and I can't stand it he lies to me about being messed up most of the time we fight about it so much and when we talk he doesn't understand how I feel. I just want to feel healthy again, needed again not just for the cleaning & cooking. I love my family but I hate how I feel I just don't want to be scared all the time. Thanks for listening .....
