Agent26, I have been on my last rope often as well... so many hardships have come into my life. My first son being born (after hospital negligence) with severe handicaps, and me taking care of him his whole life was a biggy. But it made me respect life, respect unborn children, appreciate the honor of having a child. My marriage turning loveless was another hardship. It made me realize I took it for granted when we did have that story-book love that everyone seeks. I have had health problems and money problems and abandonment in my childhood and was molested and so much more....
But... life is beautiful. It really is. You did not state what your hardships are. I learned to find beauty and happiness in little things. A friend will help. A friend doesnt have to be what an "ideal" friend is... if there is a church around, someone may be there to volunteer to pray with you. A friend could be a loving and silly dog even. I think dogs are one of God's greatest creations... *smile* I have learned to try to forgive people who have wronged me... at first it was impossible because people have done horrible things to me... but I realized... I have done very bad things too, and I ask God to forgive me. So how can I expect God to forgive me if I cannot forgive?
I pray you find peace and happiness and satisfaction in your life. In Jesus' name, amen