War with the Past

Hungry4love357

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I am making strong efforts to kick a habitual sin out of my life and thus far have been  granted victory, but the battle and the war are far from over.  The temptation to go back keeps flashing me in the face.  I don't want to go back though.  I don't even want to think about it.  I left it at the cross.  But the memories of the pleasure that came from such sin are tempting me to go back.  All these flashbacks, and and erotic images that are flashing in my head when I first wake up, make me want to go back, just once to get it out of my system, but I made a promise to someone I would never intentionally look at that garbage ever again.  Not just for my sake but for the sake of my future bride.  I feel ashamed of that past , and I never want to go back or even look back.  I know those images are burned into my mind, and I will never be able to completely erase them, but I can make sure I don't make new ones, and don't reinforce it.  I wish I had a delete button on my brain that would erase those sensual images and videos from my mind forever, but it does not work like that.  I have to keep fighting though.  I love her (my future wife) more, and I don't want her to ever even think of having to compete with porn.  I don't want to degrade her like that.  Please pray that God will continue to give me the strength to fight my flesh, and my sinful nature, and keep the Evil One away.  Keep my enemy from reminding me of the past.  The enemy keeps telling me that all this effort for someone God won't even give me is worthless.  He keeps telling me, "she will leave you, because she did not wait for you, and you will never be able to satisfy her in any way."  And all this other garbage, and when i start thinking about how those possibilities may be vary real it makes me anxious, but I trust that God will be faithful, and that though I may have lusted after other women, that he would acknowledge the fact that i am still physically a virgin, and that he will give me a virgin wife.  I pray that she will keep her faith as well, and that she too would wait for me, as I am for her, and that if she is struggling the same way I am, that God would get a hold of her and start her in the right direction.  I pray this all in Jesus name, Amen.
 
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I am making strong efforts to kick a habitual sin out of my life and thus far have been  granted victory, but the battle and the war are far from over.  The temptation to go back keeps flashing me in the face.  I don't want to go back though.  I don't even want to think about it.  I left it at the cross.  But the memories of the pleasure that came from such sin are tempting me to go back.  All these flashbacks, and and erotic images that are flashing in my head when I first wake up, make me want to go back, just once to get it out of my system, but I made a promise to someone I would never intentionally look at that garbage ever again.  Not just for my sake but for the sake of my future bride.  I feel ashamed of that past , and I never want to go back or even look back.  I know those images are burned into my mind, and I will never be able to completely erase them, but I can make sure I don't make new ones, and don't reinforce it.  I wish I had a delete button on my brain that would erase those sensual images and videos from my mind forever, but it does not work like that.  I have to keep fighting though.  I love her (my future wife) more, and I don't want her to ever even think of having to compete with porn.  I don't want to degrade her like that.  Please pray that God will continue to give me the strength to fight my flesh, and my sinful nature, and keep the Evil One away.  Keep my enemy from reminding me of the past.  The enemy keeps telling me that all this effort for someone God won't even give me is worthless.  He keeps telling me, "she will leave you, because she did not wait for you, and you will never be able to satisfy her in any way."  And all this other garbage, and when i start thinking about how those possibilities may be vary real it makes me anxious, but I trust that God will be faithful, and that though I may have lusted after other women, that he would acknowledge the fact that i am still physically a virgin, and that he will give me a virgin wife.  I pray that she will keep her faith as well, and that she too would wait for me, as I am for her, and that if she is struggling the same way I am, that God would get a hold of her and start her in the right direction.  I pray this all in Jesus name, Amen.
Shalom. Father, I thank you for the pure heart of this man. His heart is pure before you and you see it, because you washed and cleansed him. Thank you that you also have given him the mind of Christ, that his thoughts are towards you. The enemy is defeated and sin has no power or dominion over him. I thank you for Holy Spirit who teaches, guides and leads him into all truth. Thank you for the ability to cast down those thoughts and feelings because they are not who he is any longer. Thank you that you abide in them in the fullness of your Spirit, they are complete in Christ and now, Lord, they simply focus on you, and cast down those thoughts and feelings, recognizing it as the enemy. 

I encourage you to simply begin to praise and thank the Lord. Thank Him for His grace, which is sufficient for you. Thank Him, simply begin to thank him and affirm who you are in Christ. Dan Mohler (he's on youtube) had the same issue, for six months, he had these vile images and thoughts...and he asked Holy Spirit what to do about them because he recognized that is NOT who he IS...and Holy Spirit said, to simply begin to worship Him...so that is what I encourage you to do, ask Holy Spirit how to handle this situation you are in.

 YOu are the overcomer, the triumphant one, the victorious one. Sin has no power over you...because you are established in righteousness. Isa 54:14  In righteousness shalt thou be established: thou shalt be far from oppression; for thou shalt not fear: and from terror; for it shall not come near thee. Isa 54:17  No weapon that is formed against thee shall prosper; and every tongue that shall rise against thee in judgment thou shalt condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the LORD, and their righteousness is of me, saith the LORD. 

You are blessed and free from condemnation, guilt and shame, you are fully a son of God, now walk it out, in praise and thanksgiving...acknowledging every good thing in you.  
 
Praying for you and congratulations for wanting purity. We are only humans, but be sure that anything you do to improve yourself is never worthless.
 
I am praying for you to have strength in your time of difficulty. In God's precious holy name, ~Amen
 
And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus (Philippians 4:7).

The Lord Himself goes before you and will be with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged (Deuteronomy 31:8)

I am praying for you.
 
Thank you for giving us the privilege to pray on your behalf. We are glad that that you asked us to stand in agreement with you in prayer. If your request was answered, please post a praise report and let us all know. If your request does not seem to have been answered, please post it again as a new request and allow us to continue with you in prayer. We all hope that our prayers are answered in the way that we want. Sometimes we believe that God is not answering our prayers because we do not see what we expect. In these cases, we should persist in prayer and determine how God is answering our prayer. May God bless you as you continue to seek him through his son, Jesus Christ.
 

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