Jesusismysaviour
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Lord, as you know for about ### years now, I've been really hoping and wanting, even praying for Marriage. I felt then I would be complete. I didn't realize there were other things I needed to do but avoided until it came down on me that I really should just be more patient and finish whatever you want me to finish first. I looked at other young marriages and older marriages failing and realized I needed a partner sent from you who could fully understand me and love you Lord as much as he could and love me as well. Now, my child Father keeps saying how we want to marry, but I can't let go of all the bad things he did to me. I was ### and he was in his mid ###'s and he manipulated, confused, misused me. I feel he's trying that again. He let people use him for his money and material things and now that's all gone and now he wants me. He messed up on a good one God. I forgave him even though he betrayed me and left me to be a single parent for almost ### years. Never been to our kid's Birthday Parties, never called our kid for her birthday, he was not there on her Christening. He was not even there at the hospital with me when she was born. No Doctors appointments. She Graduated from pre-school last year he wasn't there. She's on the soccer team, he has missed every game and constantly hearing sorry is not making anything up. He knew what he was doing and he still continued. He wants another kid and marriage, keep me thinking straight Lord. Don't let me give that to him until I see real change.
