Your cry, poured out with such urgency and heaviness of heart, has been heard and brought before the Lord with tender compassion. The pain that has led you to plead so earnestly for your body, your health, your sleep, your peace of mind and your home is not hidden from Him who sees the heart, and it is right that you should bring it all to Jesus, for He is the great Physician of both body and soul.
Man is a double being, composed of body and soul, and each portion may receive injury and hurt. We very speedily care for bodily diseases, for they are painful and press us to seek a physician, and the Lord does not despise that care. Yet you yourself are better than your body, and the adorning of the body, though it engrosses much thought, must not cause the ornaments of the soul to be neglected. The feeding of the physical frame is needful, but the supply of spiritual food is far more needful still.
Hear then what the Scripture teaches concerning healing. The leaves of the tree of life were for the healing of the nations, and the least thing about Christ is healing. His very leaves are full of healing virtue. When Jesus healed the sick of the palsy He said first, Son, be of good cheer, your sins are forgiven you, and in that we learn that pardon and healing are one. The root of our disease is sin, and Christ removes the root by forgiving sin. Oftentimes our cure is much helped by repenting and forsaking what is evil and by coming to Him for cleansing in His blood. There is an abundance of healing power in Jesus Christ and His salvation, and He is able to heal, though He heals according to His own wisdom and mercy.
Know this also, that while we are here, the body is dead because of sin, but the spirit is life because of righteousness. The regenerated spirit has risen into life, but the body lingers under the power of death and its attendants, pain and weakness. We that are in this body do groan, being burdened, and groan we shall till the day of our full redemption and the deliverance of the body from the bondage of corruption. It is sown in weakness, it is raised in power, and at the resurrection we shall be raised in the image of the Lord Jesus. The Lord who calls the body the temple of God desires its perfection, not its destruction, and He will in His time make all things new. Therefore we pray for your healing, for your skin, your eyes, your hair, your breathing, your sleep, your hormones and your whole frame, that the Lord would lay His hand upon you and grant relief, strength and health as it pleases His love, and that He would give you grace to steward your body with peace and not with tormenting anxiety. For have you not found that the very anxiety which arises through your being in a difficulty unfits you to meet that difficulty. Cast your care upon Him, for He cares for you.
You have spoken also of loneliness, singleness, lateness in marriage, criticism, disappointment, rejection and the sense of being under a curse and misfortune. The loneliness of the Savior may be your comfort here. He was left alone, alone just when most, as Man, He needed human sympathy, and yet He said, You shall leave Me alone and yet I am not alone, because the Father is with Me. His loneliness did not destroy Him, though it pained Him, and He knows yours. In deep soul conflict, when faith has to fight for very existence, He draws near to the solitary soul. There is no curse that can hold the one whom Christ has redeemed, for Christ has redeemed us from the curse, being made a curse for us. No generational chain, no bad luck, no misfortune can separate you from His love when you are sheltered in Him. We pray that the Lord would lift from you the weight of depression, anxiety, fear and nervousness, that He would give you quiet sleep and a calm mind, and that He would heal the broken heart, for He heals the broken in heart and binds up their wounds.
And concerning marriage, we pray according to the holy and good design of God, that marriage is a lifelong covenant of one man and one woman, ordained by Him for good. If it be His will for you, we ask that He would in His perfect time and in His gracious providence bring to you a godly husband, and keep you both pure and faithful, with any intimacy kept within that covenant alone. If He calls you to wait, we ask that He would make His presence so real to you that you would not be desolate, and that He would use this season for your growth in holiness and joy in Christ. We ask also for your daily provision, for your home and circumstances, that He who clothes the lilies and feeds the sparrows would supply your needs and turn your sorrow into hope.
Let us pray together.
O Lord, our Father, look in mercy upon this afflicted child of Thine. Forgive all sin through the blood of Jesus Christ, Thy Son, and let pardon be the beginning of healing. Lay Thy healing hand upon body and mind. Ease the breathing, calm the nerves, quiet the fears, give sleep, lift the cloud of sadness, and restore peace. Touch the skin, the eyes, the hair and every part that causes distress, and grant health according to Thy will. Deliver from all oppression and from every curse, for Christ has borne the curse for us. Let the healing leaves of Christ be applied to this wounded spirit, changing the life blood and making the nature new. In loneliness, let this soul know that Thou art with her, as Thou wast with Thy Son in His loneliness. Grant contentment, hope and trust in Thy goodness, and if it please Thee, provide a godly marriage in Thy time, ordered by Thy Word. Supply all need, turn suffering and misery into testimony of Thy grace, and keep this dear one till that day when the body shall be raised incorruptible. We ask this in the name of Jesus Christ our Lord, who lives and reigns to heal and to save. Amen.