Vengance Belongs To God. Should I Not Sue?

I am still concerned about this decision to follow through with a law suite with my employer because of disability discrimination. At times I think I have the choice in my mind other times I find a reason to doubt it. Besides the reason that must come to most peoples minds. Not wanting to waste the time and energy on a process that could be ignored, over turned, and well a waste. I told my self that most importantly my decision to do so will not be made out of anger, resentment, or retaliation. That if I do it will be because its the right thing to do. Because it is a matter that we cannot agree on and need a higher authorities decision on. Isn't that what it is for? The real reason it should be used anyway? And if so, what is so wrong with that? I am still seeking an answer from God. I even began a Bible plan about justice that I do. I have learned a lot. That God encourages us to take up for the oppressed. And this favoritism brings about constant results on others at my job just like I am experiencing. It needs to stop. I have brought it to the attention of the higher authorities. Who claimed to have made an agreement. I brought again to their attention what they agreed on isn't being followed through with consistency. They made up reasons why it was OK to happen. So you will make an agreement but it is null and void really? No matter what I do at this job I feel like I never earn my spot because I wont make friends with people to get it. I really just want back the position I had before I had to be hospitalized. The one I was told I was losing because that. I just want it back like it was before I left. I don't want anyone to suffer to have to give it back to me. They are doing a lot of illegal things though. I at times have to ask God " Please when I go to work let me be kind and not rude and angry towards my job because of what they have done to me." I even stopped shopping their for awhile because I was so angry with them. The funny thing is. This company claims to be devote Christians. They place a scripture at the bottom of all their shopping bags they manufacture. But, they allow this disgusting work environment to take place and these managers that say and do things that repulse God to represent their company. It could almost anger me that they use his name and word for publicity of kindness when what they show they stand for is foul language, they hire people that don't even believe in God and openly deny him in the workplace ( unprofessional ugh) and really have no representation of God. I suppose the owner decided to carry the slogan. With so many chains maybe that isn't a priority. And I know i should love my brothers and sisters always. Praying for them. I am going through the process of forgiveness. Which seems to never end. And I know that is life and my duty as Gods servant. But what hurts so badly is that it has been going on since I was small and going on forever with the people who were suppose to love me the most. It could have been worse and I try not to make it dramatic. But dramatic or not it hurts. And maybe its not the forgiving I am tired of. But the betrayal.I am weary of devoting myself to a cause to gain nothing in return. To be told I just did bad and that it didn't matter. That someone does it better. That someone is the one that says they hate their job or hates the relationship. And I am in need of that persons love or that same job they have that I would appreciate. But maybe I should appreciate the little hours I have and God will give me more. I look for other jobs. I never hear anything! I thought at first well maybe this is God telling me I need to have another job. I don't belong here maybe. I'm not sure now. It seems like if that was it then I would have it by now. I trust in him to provide. And tell myself he will. So I can relax and be thankful for the little I have. He will provide while I do that by giving me more later. Maybe he wants me to stay and persevere. Maybe that isn't by a law suite. I haven't mentioned my new relationship with God to anyone at work, but I believe they may see changed in my attitude. Apologizing when I am wrong or act wrong and being more thankful. Taking authority better. Working harder I'd hope but i am not sure that will ever matter. God see's it though. He see's EVERYTHING. He see's what I do and he will make sure I am paid in full for it. And that they are paid in full for what they do. Rather that be at work or in their life.

 

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We must always forgive people we feel have wronged us. The forgiveness we give others will be the forgiveness we receive from our Lord. Pray for the people you feel are doing you wrong that they may change. Hate the sin and not the person. A worker is also due their wages, respect, promotional opportunities, and non-hostile work environment. You may have to sue if you feel it is the right thing to do. I pray that YHWH guides you to your decision and that you don't let them take your joy or that you give your joy away. In Yahshua's name I pray, Amen.