• Please pray that all my cats will be and stay healthy. Please also pray about some of them sneezing quite a bit lately. I do not have money for vet bills and don't know of a good vet to take them to. I love them so much.
• Pray that I will successfully complete all my assignments that are due in the next two weeks of class in college which are the last two weeks of the class. This is the last class I need to finish to get my degree. Pray that I will focus and complete each assignment in a good amount of time and in the amount of time I want to. Pray that I will not be distracted but use my time wisely. Pray that I will also not be distracted and use my time wisely in every area of my life for the rest of my life.
• Please also pray for me as I feel so bad emotionally, mentally, spiritually and physically. There are a combination of things likely causing this: demonic attacks and emotional and physiological reaction to eating a lot of things recently I'm not supposed to eat due to a medical condition. Please pray for me to have discipline in eating according to the diet my doctor prescribed for me.
• Please also pray for me about sinful products that I created when I was in rebellion against God. I was keeping these products up because they were created in collaboration with others who I still wanted their talent to be shown, however, I now understand all these products need to be taken down no matter what. In the past month or so, I have done everything I can to get these products taken down. I needed the consent of those who collaborated on them to get some of them taken down so, because I either was unable to reach the collaborators or haven't heard back from them, some of them remain up. However, there is a clause in the contracts with the collaborators that says these products can be taken down after a few years without needing consent. Please pray for me about having wisdom in whether or not to use this clause in a few years for those people whose consent I was not able to get. Please also pray that, if it is wise for me to use this clause, I will remember to do so. But, either way, I have done everything I believe I could do on my end right now to get these products taken down. Please pray that God will do something to get every one of these products totally taken down in the immediate future.
• Please also pray for me as I have a constant worry about ever being in a frame of mind (whether due to mental illness, physical illness or something else) that causes me to be unable to be rational and thus unable to rationally live and think as I'm supposed to as a Christian. For example, what if something happens to me physically or mentally that causes my emotions to be out of control and then I fail to respond to people in a Christlike way. I have this fear I think because I do struggle with certain physical illnesses that affect my emotions and then I find myself failing to be Christlike. I don't want to ever not be obedient to Christ, I don't like this.
• Please pray for me about my mother. She truly is demonized and has a terrible evil spirit in her. She also has emotional, mental and behavioral problems and it is very, very difficult to deal with on a daily basis. I got into a fight with her today because we were invited to an event at church this week and she got upset when I brought it up to her. She responds to literally anything with intense negativity no matter how calmly or peacefully one approaches her. You have to really be disciplined to interact with her without allowing yourself to react to the bad behavior she displays in a way similar to it. I told her we had been invited to this event and asked could we go (really, I don't have to ask for her permission to do anything, I'm well into my adult years and can really do whatever I want but my parents are protective and I also don't mind this to a certain extent but actually appreciate it so I do ask for their permission to do certain things; also I want to be respectful) and she immediately shot me down. Then the more I tried to bring it up, even though I tried to do so calmly and kindly, she just responded with more and more negativity and meanness. Eventually I got mad and I said many things to her that I know I shouldn't have and raised my voice. I'm not feeling well and feel so tired physically and mentally and I guess I just snapped in weakness. Part of the reason I'm not feeling well may even be due to her behavior which has maybe worn me down recently. I didn't realize how bad it was until God delivered me from certain things myself a month or so ago and being delivered out of those things allowed me to see life more clearly and see how severe her behavior is. I'm not sure if any of the neighbors heard (we live in a townhouse in a quiet neighborhood and you can easily hear what's happening in someone's house if it's quiet outside) and I don't want my yelling and the things I said to tarnish my witness as it's probably obvious I'm a Christian. Getting mad at her is pointless anyway because it's not her I'm interacting with when she behaves this way, it's the literal demon in her. I really want to go to this event and I like spending time with people at church but there's always a reason from her why we can't do things with them but yet she'll do other things outside of church without question. It is literally always a huge negative reaction from her (and she also acts like this regarding other things I want to do outside of church as well). My dad refuses to go to church at all and I can't even begin to unpack that. I have a thought in my head to just try to go by myself but I don't know if I should. I'm so tired of all this and tired of everything. I'm really upset. I haven't responded to the person who invited us, to their message. I don't even know what to say.
• Pray that I will successfully complete all my assignments that are due in the next two weeks of class in college which are the last two weeks of the class. This is the last class I need to finish to get my degree. Pray that I will focus and complete each assignment in a good amount of time and in the amount of time I want to. Pray that I will not be distracted but use my time wisely. Pray that I will also not be distracted and use my time wisely in every area of my life for the rest of my life.
• Please also pray for me as I feel so bad emotionally, mentally, spiritually and physically. There are a combination of things likely causing this: demonic attacks and emotional and physiological reaction to eating a lot of things recently I'm not supposed to eat due to a medical condition. Please pray for me to have discipline in eating according to the diet my doctor prescribed for me.
• Please also pray for me about sinful products that I created when I was in rebellion against God. I was keeping these products up because they were created in collaboration with others who I still wanted their talent to be shown, however, I now understand all these products need to be taken down no matter what. In the past month or so, I have done everything I can to get these products taken down. I needed the consent of those who collaborated on them to get some of them taken down so, because I either was unable to reach the collaborators or haven't heard back from them, some of them remain up. However, there is a clause in the contracts with the collaborators that says these products can be taken down after a few years without needing consent. Please pray for me about having wisdom in whether or not to use this clause in a few years for those people whose consent I was not able to get. Please also pray that, if it is wise for me to use this clause, I will remember to do so. But, either way, I have done everything I believe I could do on my end right now to get these products taken down. Please pray that God will do something to get every one of these products totally taken down in the immediate future.
• Please also pray for me as I have a constant worry about ever being in a frame of mind (whether due to mental illness, physical illness or something else) that causes me to be unable to be rational and thus unable to rationally live and think as I'm supposed to as a Christian. For example, what if something happens to me physically or mentally that causes my emotions to be out of control and then I fail to respond to people in a Christlike way. I have this fear I think because I do struggle with certain physical illnesses that affect my emotions and then I find myself failing to be Christlike. I don't want to ever not be obedient to Christ, I don't like this.
• Please pray for me about my mother. She truly is demonized and has a terrible evil spirit in her. She also has emotional, mental and behavioral problems and it is very, very difficult to deal with on a daily basis. I got into a fight with her today because we were invited to an event at church this week and she got upset when I brought it up to her. She responds to literally anything with intense negativity no matter how calmly or peacefully one approaches her. You have to really be disciplined to interact with her without allowing yourself to react to the bad behavior she displays in a way similar to it. I told her we had been invited to this event and asked could we go (really, I don't have to ask for her permission to do anything, I'm well into my adult years and can really do whatever I want but my parents are protective and I also don't mind this to a certain extent but actually appreciate it so I do ask for their permission to do certain things; also I want to be respectful) and she immediately shot me down. Then the more I tried to bring it up, even though I tried to do so calmly and kindly, she just responded with more and more negativity and meanness. Eventually I got mad and I said many things to her that I know I shouldn't have and raised my voice. I'm not feeling well and feel so tired physically and mentally and I guess I just snapped in weakness. Part of the reason I'm not feeling well may even be due to her behavior which has maybe worn me down recently. I didn't realize how bad it was until God delivered me from certain things myself a month or so ago and being delivered out of those things allowed me to see life more clearly and see how severe her behavior is. I'm not sure if any of the neighbors heard (we live in a townhouse in a quiet neighborhood and you can easily hear what's happening in someone's house if it's quiet outside) and I don't want my yelling and the things I said to tarnish my witness as it's probably obvious I'm a Christian. Getting mad at her is pointless anyway because it's not her I'm interacting with when she behaves this way, it's the literal demon in her. I really want to go to this event and I like spending time with people at church but there's always a reason from her why we can't do things with them but yet she'll do other things outside of church without question. It is literally always a huge negative reaction from her (and she also acts like this regarding other things I want to do outside of church as well). My dad refuses to go to church at all and I can't even begin to unpack that. I have a thought in my head to just try to go by myself but I don't know if I should. I'm so tired of all this and tired of everything. I'm really upset. I haven't responded to the person who invited us, to their message. I don't even know what to say.
