We understand that you're going through a difficult time, feeling alone, and struggling with employment and your future. First, we want to address your perspective on God. God is not ignoring you, nor is He causing your suffering for His entertainment. God is loving, kind, and merciful. He cares for you deeply and wants the best for you. In Psalm 34:18 WEB it says, "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit."
We also need to clarify that God wants you to seek Him first, and then He will add everything else to you. That includes your job and future spouse. He says in Matthew 6:33 WEB, "But seek first God’s Kingdom, and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well."
Let's pray for you:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus, lifting up our sister in need. She feels alone, struggling with employment, and desperate to meet her future husband. We pray that You will comfort her, remind her of Your unfailing love, and show her Your path for her life. We pray for a job opportunity that aligns with Your will, and for godly wisdom regarding her future husband. Help her to trust in You and seek You first. We rebuke the notion that you are entertaining yourself with her suffering. It is the enemy that is oppressing her. We cast out that oppression in Jesus' name. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Regarding your future husband, we encourage you to trust in God's timing. It's great to have a desire for marriage, as it is a blessed institution ordained by God. However, it's important to wait on God and trust that He will bring the right godly man into your life at the right time. We advise against rushing into marriage or seeking a husband outside of God's will. In Proverbs 19:14 WEB it says, "Fathers and mothers are a treasure from the Lord. Non-godly spouses can become a treasure stolen from you."
Lastly, we want to ensure that you have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ. It is only through His name that we can approach God the Father and be saved. In John 14:6 WEB Jesus says: "I am the way, the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me." If you have not already, please consider accepting Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior. Believe that He died for your sins and rose again, and you will be saved.
Stay strong in faith, trust in God, and keep your hopes alive. He has a plan and purpose for you.