We hear the deep cry of your heart, and we are moved with compassion for the suffering and spiritual battle you are enduring. Your honesty before the Lord is a sign that He is already at work in you, drawing you to Himself, even in the midst of your unbelief and pain. You have called upon the name of Jesus, and that is the most important step—because salvation, healing, and deliverance come through Him alone. There is no other name under heaven by which we must be saved, and it is only through faith in Christ that we are made children of God. You have acknowledged your need for Him, and that is where true transformation begins.
The struggle you describe—believing yet not fully believing, wanting to surrender but feeling unable—is one many saints have faced. Even the father in Mark 9:24 cried out to Jesus, *"I believe. Help my unbelief!"* And Jesus honored that prayer. Your faith does not have to be perfect; it only needs to be placed in the perfect Savior. The fact that you are reaching out, even in your brokenness, shows that the Holy Spirit is convicting and calling you. Do not despair, for the Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit (Psalm 34:18). He sees your pain, your fear, and your longing for Him, and He will not turn away from you.
The anxieties, depression, suicidal thoughts, and demonic attacks you mention are not from God. They are weapons of the enemy to steal, kill, and destroy (John 10:10), but Jesus came to give you life—abundant and eternal. The Scriptures assure us that *"God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control"* (2 Timothy 1:7). You are in a spiritual battle, but greater is He who is in you than he who is in the world (1 John 4:4). The Lord will fight for you; you need only be still (Exodus 14:14).
As for your salvation, the Word of God is clear: *"If you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart, one believes unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation"* (Romans 10:9-10). You do not have to wait for perfect faith—salvation is received by grace through faith, and even that faith is a gift from God (Ephesians 2:8-9). If you will turn to Him now, confessing your sins and your need for Him, He will save you. He promises, *"Whoever comes to me, I will in no way throw out"* (John 6:37).
Your mental anguish and physical struggles are real, and we do not minimize them. But we proclaim over you the truth of Isaiah 53:5: *"By his stripes, we are healed."* Jesus bore your pain, your sickness, and your sin on the cross so that you might be made whole. He is the Great Physician, and He longs to restore you—body, soul, and spirit. The same power that raised Christ from the dead is available to you (Ephesians 1:19-20). The Lord will not leave you in this state; He is faithful to complete the work He has begun in you (Philippians 1:6).
Now, let us pray over you with the authority and love of Christ:
Heavenly Father, we come before You on behalf of this precious soul who is crying out to You in desperation. Lord Jesus, You said that whoever comes to You, You will never cast out, and so we ask that You draw this beloved one fully into Your arms of love. Strip away every lie of the enemy that says they are too far gone, too broken, or too unworthy. Holy Spirit, move mightily in their heart right now—remove every stronghold of doubt, fear, and unbelief. Replace it with a supernatural faith that can only come from You.
Lord, we declare that salvation belongs to You (Jonah 2:9), and we ask that You would save this one completely. Let them experience the new birth—being born again of Your Spirit (John 3:3-8). Wash them clean by the blood of Jesus, forgive their sins, and write their name in the Lamb’s Book of Life. Let them know, beyond any shadow of doubt, that they are Your child, redeemed and sealed by Your Spirit (Ephesians 1:13-14).
We rebuke every spirit of anxiety, depression, suicide, and demonic oppression in the mighty name of Jesus. These torments are not from You, Lord, and we command them to flee now. Fill this one with Your peace that surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7). Heal their mind, their emotions, and their body. Restore their joy and give them a garment of praise instead of a spirit of heaviness (Isaiah 61:3).
Father, we ask that You would surround them with Your angels for protection (Psalm 91:11) and lead them to godly community where they can be discipled and encouraged. Break every chain of bullying, deception, and fear. Let them walk in the freedom for which Christ has set them free (Galatians 5:1).
Lord, we pray for a deep, personal relationship with You to take root in their life. Let them hunger and thirst for righteousness (Matthew 5:6) and find their satisfaction in You alone. Teach them to pray, to read Your Word, and to walk in obedience. Give them a spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of You (Ephesians 1:17).
We thank You, Father, that You are faithful and just to forgive and cleanse (1 John 1:9). We thank You that You have not destined us for wrath, but for obtaining salvation through our Lord Jesus Christ (1 Thessalonians 5:9). Let this one know, without a doubt, that they are saved, healed, and delivered by the power of Your name.
We pray all this in the mighty and matchless name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior. Amen.
Beloved, we urge you to take this step of faith right now. Pray this simple prayer from your heart:
*"Lord Jesus, I come to You as a sinner in need of Your grace. I believe that You died for my sins and rose again so that I might have eternal life. I confess You as my Lord and Savior. Forgive me for my sins, cleanse me, and fill me with Your Holy Spirit. I surrender my life to You. Take away my unbelief and help me to trust You completely. Heal me, deliver me, and make me Your child. Thank You for saving me. In Jesus’ name, Amen."*
If you have prayed this prayer, we declare over you that you are now a child of God (John 1:12). The old has passed away; behold, the new has come (2 Corinthians 5:17). We encourage you to begin reading the Gospel of John to grow in your knowledge of Jesus. Seek out a Bible-believing church where you can be baptized and discipled. The journey has just begun, and the Lord will walk with you every step of the way.
Stand firm in this truth: *"The Lord is my light and my salvation. Whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life. Of whom shall I be afraid?"* (Psalm 27:1). You are not alone. We are standing with you in prayer, and the hosts of heaven are fighting for you. The Lord has heard your cry, and He will answer. Hold on to Him, for He is holding on to you.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
James 2:20: Faith without works is dead. Philippians 4:13: I can do all things through Christ, which strengthened me.
Pray for the salvation of your family, friends, those you care about, and all those God place on your heart. 
