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jadejenova
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Up until I was 18 I had gone to church regularly when I lived at home with my parents but after turning 18, and moved out I stopped and only went every now and then. In fact last time I attended church was several months ago.
All my life since I was about twelve years old, I have been drawn to astrology, witchcraft, hoodoo/voodoo, tarot cards and psychics and my mother would always warn me against it but I never took her seriously. I would 'cast spells' and all that mess, but at the same time I would get nervous at night and several nights afterward because after what I had done thinking I would mistakenly 'wake something up after me' .
Last night was one of those nights. I live alone, yet after spending the last two days 'casting spells' and the such, I was afraid to sleep alone so I made my boyfriend sleep over with me. I kept feeling I was being watched and that something was in the room with me, I was that creeped out. Anyway, like the night before I kept waking up in the middle of the night several times, and this was no different. However, early in the morning my boyfriend suddenly woke up with a nose bleed, bleeding everywhere. Nose bleeds are very uncommon for him and he told me that he never has them, especially out of nowhere. When he went to the bathroom to clean himself up and to rinse our pillow cases, I got out of bed feeling increasingly uneasy and looked around the room to discover the Mother Mary statue I had , that I had righted on the shelf prior to going to sleep last night, was now on the floor facedown, partly under my side of the bed.... If it were to fall in our sleep, how come we both did not hear it, and how could it fall on it's own? Needless to say, I was scared to death..and this happened just this morning. I took my boyfriend to work at 5 this morning, and afterward I sat at Sheetz just thinking, about my life, what I have done, and what I possibly could have opened up and unleashed on my house for about 45 minutes. Partly I was too scared to go back in there alone, thinking of every horror movie known to man. (That's another funny thing about me, I am too scared to watch horror movies, yet I was practicing dark stuff, yet too scared to sleep alone after doing it.. Irony.) I got to work early this morning, about 45 minutes early to be exact, because I was too scared to sit back in my house alone, and texted my boyfriend as I sat in the parking lot telling him I was done with all the paranormal stuff, hoodoo voodoo crap as he calls it, and told him I would be throwing every metaphysical book, every spell supply I used/bought, my 'altar' , out into the dumpster behind my house when I got home this evening and that I'll probably be extremely nervous going to bed alone this evening. Then I got to work, and ...well I got on -banned site-..
and a friend's status was the first one I saw on my newsfeed. He linked another person in the status, and I clicked on the name thinking to see a picture of his new girlfriend. Turned out the woman he was linking was his mother and who was advertising a puppy website on her page,...and I thought, PUPPIES! Who wouldn't want to look at puppies to ease my anxiety and worry..and so I clicked the link to browse the animals she had for sale and saw another one that caught my eye called Things You Should Know.... It contained a prayer to come back to Jesus and invited the reader to pray it right now to be saved...
I really think that God has led me to her and that website. With all the events that have occurred in my life, especially in the last 48hrs, I think God knew I was done with all the crap I had been meddling with and heard me...as soon as I texted my boyfriend telling him that I throwing all of my metaphysical stuff away, He led me to the site as a doorway to come back into his arms not thirty minutes later. I said the prayer she had on your website at my desk and felt tears come to my eyes, and knew... and then I said it again in my own words feeling them fall on my face, and sense of calm wash over me. I am still afraid to sleep tonight but I feel better that God is back on my side, and that I am rebuilding a relationship with him. I feel grateful for being saved again. I feel that I truly have been.
My prayer here is for continued guidance to stay on the right path with Jesus so I may not be tempted and led astray to sin, and for financial help in order to keep my house and pay my bills. I know I can't come right out to the Lord and start demanding things from him, having just started rebuilding a relationship with him but I would appreciate any prayers you all could send up for me. To stay faithful, to continue grow in my relationship with God, and for financial assistance be it His Will.
Thank you for reading.
All my life since I was about twelve years old, I have been drawn to astrology, witchcraft, hoodoo/voodoo, tarot cards and psychics and my mother would always warn me against it but I never took her seriously. I would 'cast spells' and all that mess, but at the same time I would get nervous at night and several nights afterward because after what I had done thinking I would mistakenly 'wake something up after me' .
Last night was one of those nights. I live alone, yet after spending the last two days 'casting spells' and the such, I was afraid to sleep alone so I made my boyfriend sleep over with me. I kept feeling I was being watched and that something was in the room with me, I was that creeped out. Anyway, like the night before I kept waking up in the middle of the night several times, and this was no different. However, early in the morning my boyfriend suddenly woke up with a nose bleed, bleeding everywhere. Nose bleeds are very uncommon for him and he told me that he never has them, especially out of nowhere. When he went to the bathroom to clean himself up and to rinse our pillow cases, I got out of bed feeling increasingly uneasy and looked around the room to discover the Mother Mary statue I had , that I had righted on the shelf prior to going to sleep last night, was now on the floor facedown, partly under my side of the bed.... If it were to fall in our sleep, how come we both did not hear it, and how could it fall on it's own? Needless to say, I was scared to death..and this happened just this morning. I took my boyfriend to work at 5 this morning, and afterward I sat at Sheetz just thinking, about my life, what I have done, and what I possibly could have opened up and unleashed on my house for about 45 minutes. Partly I was too scared to go back in there alone, thinking of every horror movie known to man. (That's another funny thing about me, I am too scared to watch horror movies, yet I was practicing dark stuff, yet too scared to sleep alone after doing it.. Irony.) I got to work early this morning, about 45 minutes early to be exact, because I was too scared to sit back in my house alone, and texted my boyfriend as I sat in the parking lot telling him I was done with all the paranormal stuff, hoodoo voodoo crap as he calls it, and told him I would be throwing every metaphysical book, every spell supply I used/bought, my 'altar' , out into the dumpster behind my house when I got home this evening and that I'll probably be extremely nervous going to bed alone this evening. Then I got to work, and ...well I got on -banned site-..
and a friend's status was the first one I saw on my newsfeed. He linked another person in the status, and I clicked on the name thinking to see a picture of his new girlfriend. Turned out the woman he was linking was his mother and who was advertising a puppy website on her page,...and I thought, PUPPIES! Who wouldn't want to look at puppies to ease my anxiety and worry..and so I clicked the link to browse the animals she had for sale and saw another one that caught my eye called Things You Should Know.... It contained a prayer to come back to Jesus and invited the reader to pray it right now to be saved...
I really think that God has led me to her and that website. With all the events that have occurred in my life, especially in the last 48hrs, I think God knew I was done with all the crap I had been meddling with and heard me...as soon as I texted my boyfriend telling him that I throwing all of my metaphysical stuff away, He led me to the site as a doorway to come back into his arms not thirty minutes later. I said the prayer she had on your website at my desk and felt tears come to my eyes, and knew... and then I said it again in my own words feeling them fall on my face, and sense of calm wash over me. I am still afraid to sleep tonight but I feel better that God is back on my side, and that I am rebuilding a relationship with him. I feel grateful for being saved again. I feel that I truly have been.
My prayer here is for continued guidance to stay on the right path with Jesus so I may not be tempted and led astray to sin, and for financial help in order to keep my house and pay my bills. I know I can't come right out to the Lord and start demanding things from him, having just started rebuilding a relationship with him but I would appreciate any prayers you all could send up for me. To stay faithful, to continue grow in my relationship with God, and for financial assistance be it His Will.
Thank you for reading.
