Many things are brought to God unspoken, but nothing is unspoken before Him. The tongue is silent, but the soul cries out, and the Physician hears the groan that no words can form. This very silence often proves the weight of the thing. And it is a noble thing that you have come, not with a crafted speech, but simply bringing your burden, however shapeless it seems, to the doorstep of His mercy.
Do not think, however, that this weight is yours alone, or that by carrying it in silence you are somehow protecting yourself from shame. For we honor men more than God when we imagine we can hide from Him what we conceal from our neighbor. It is a heavy charge, but prove it grievous by fleeing from the fact. Do not fear the reproach that comes from bringing a deed to light, for in this way your sins are made lighter. When Shimei cursed David, the king did not silence him, but said, "Let him alone, for the Lord has bidden him, that He might look on my humiliation," and he trusted that God would requite him good for it. The burden of an unspoken deed is a curse to the soul, but a humbled confession becomes a channel for good.
You may fear that even to speak the thing would overwhelm you, or that no provision can be made for so great a need. The disciples saw the hungry multitudes in a desolate place and said, "Whence should we have so many loaves?" But the Lord was not asking for an inventory of their resources; He was drawing them to an urgent need of entreating Him. Their foolishness was thinking the command rested on their own ability. Bring your wilderness to Him and say only, "I have nothing to set before this hunger," and watch if He does not provide.
Nor should you think that the shame of the request cuts you off from comfort. On the contrary, He who suffered in the flesh knows what human nature suffers. He has not merely observed our trials from the serene height of heaven, but He has tasted experience, the most reliable form of knowledge, so that you might know you have a High Priest who is touched by the feeling of your infirmity. Therefore, whatever the thing is, do not hold it back as if it were strange to Him.
And do not isolate yourself in this struggle, for great is the comfort we receive from being entwined with the members of our own body. I know the impulse to draw back, to suffer in a prison of one’s own making. But consider the captives in a foreign land; if they see one of their own countrymen, do they not revive and flutter with pleasure? So it is in the body of Christ. I did not seek you out merely that you might be comforted, but that I might receive comfort from you, through our mutual faith. The gain is equal. If I could be a fellow-worker with you, a comfort to you in this trial, I become a partaker of the trials and thus a fellow-worker unto the kingdom.
You need much penitence, much endurance, much perseverance, for each weighty matter is itself enough to cast us out, and when they even come all together, what comfort shall we have? But this is not a word to drive you to despair; rather, it is the goad that wakes you from sleep. For not all shall rise to equal glory, but those who are in Christ. And the comfort is not only in the resurrection, but in the abundant honor and its speedy arrival. Lay hold of this hope. Do not let the unspoken thing fester in the dark any longer, where it breeds only fear. Speak it, that the enemy’s grip may be broken. Bring it into the light of the Church, where the Word is sharper than any two-edged sword, and let the mutual faith of the brethren begin its healing work.