Sweetangel
Account Closed
Lord I come to you today to ask for forgiveness. I'm putting this out there to all my brothers and sisters that I honestly am trying to get out of something wonderful. I'm having a hard time staying confident and positive that something new and something that will make me much happier is coming this year. I need to get back to my faith and it's wrong of me to try to find a reason to get out of this BUT I have been way past the need of returning to Church. Lord my ###'s brother is having a party for his wife. The way I feel right now I don't have the strength to socialize with all these people I don't even know much less people I do know. I know that is a terrible thing but it happens to me. You know my heart and my disorder. You know I have to pace myself with a lot of things. Including so much to do with my relationship. I just can't do all this going to all these parties sometimes. Right now I just can't handle it. So I want to do something new this year and attend Midnight Mass. I need to and I need to do it alone. You know that ### is not spiritual and doesn't have a lot of faith. He has been showing signs of getting in touch with his faith and I hope having more faith in you. I pray Lord please continue to win him in your heart and hands. Please! My request is that PLEASE let him understand that tomorrow when I ask him to understand and not be angry or hurt that I rather go to church then to that party that he understands and that he tries to understand why I need to do the things I need to do. Help him to understand me more about this disorder I have and please continue to stop his frustration and anger about it and everything. He is doing so much better since I have guided him away from his other addiction Alot Better! I also have gotten him to commit to quitting smoking again. Everything is so hard right now still but it's still wonderful and beautiful with all your love and help. Please Lord just let him understand this. In Jesus Name I Pray Amen.
