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walknfaith
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I learned that I am not as disciplined as I need to be. I found that I felt disapointed in myself for not finishing school. In going through that I found myself thinking, why am I feeling so bad about this situation if I have a higher priority in the Lord or value in Him. I know he knows how much this met to me personally, but then maybe I needed this to see something I haven't seen just yet.(that he is revealing) Then I thought that it is just only human of me to think this way, now I am trying to figure out what to do. Get another job. Spend more time with my mom with my brother and sister back home or they can spend more time with mom. Or take mom to see all her friends to catch up on stuff. They say traveling is good. I think right now I feel like crying over spilled milk and just being a kid who needs a timeout or something. I only see 20% of faith. 80% sad deep inside. Sometimes I like to visualize that me and the Lord are sitting at the steps and I am telling him all about this and he is just listening just being there like a pal. Maybe this will take time to subside. Like saying good bye to a pet or something. I think I wanted it so bad I never thought of not finishing. I can't blame my mom or my aunt's physical condition for I try to be of assistance. I pray that he can replace this feeling with something great like something I never realized or something. I know he can do it, I just can't see it now....Thank you Lord for just being there.
Pray for inner peace and whatever the Lord says to pray about for me. Thanks.
Pray for inner peace and whatever the Lord says to pray about for me. Thanks.
