Hungry4love357
Servant of All
I have a group project that has to be done by the 22 of October, am possibly failing a critical class, and trying to keep up with other classes as well. I was not gonna mention this until it got a bit closer, but I am suppose to be escorting a young lady to a play, and will possibly get to court her some, but I have no idea if it will still happen, and I am a bit nervous. Be it my luck she will find someone else to do it and say I am no longer needed. Fingers crossed I will get this opportunity. I feel basically invisible to all the other women. I am struggling with my addiction again, and contemplating rehab. I have work that's starting to overwhelm me, and finding a balance in everything is stressing me out. I understand consistently having to work is part of life, but I never thought it would be so stressful, that I would not be able to relax. And, I'm trying not to let this bother me, but, I am still bothered by the fact that special Christian young women has not come into my life yet, and the more I hear I gotta prepare for her, it seems like the more pressure gets piled onto me, and It's getting to me. I wish I could just stop and take a break for a while, because I'm burning out. I don't feel a point to keep pushing myself and becoming a better person, if it does not yield any reward. I guess I have just become too lazy. I feel like I lost my joy in doing things. I need God to help me organize and put it all back together, because right now I just don't feel like I can do it. I don't see a point either. I just simply don't have time to do everything I need to do. I just, I have no fire left. I need Jesus to help me out of this rut I'm in, and help me focus. I can't give up when I'm so close to the end. But I can't handle all the pressure either. I need time to recuperate. I need rest. Pray that God would give me rest, and help me enjoy work again, and be motivated to do things, because right now, I don't want to do anything. Pray for motivation, and that I don't get distracted by my desire for a helpmate. And that I receive victory in the battle against my addiction. Amen
