broken winged
Humble Prayer Warrior
Trying 2 hold it together while everything is out of my hands and completely out of my control. The future of my family is literally in the hands of God and I must trust in him NOT to go crazy with anxiety, depression, despair, and condemnation. Well, that's my plate folks.. a crappy hand I must say due to me wanting things to work out and unfold as I have prayed daily and trying not to be narcissistic but positive. I keep telling myself that ALL of this is for a powerful testimony that will help many others living through the same trials. I believe that this is a way of growing closer to God and learning to TRUST him and completely surrender. It is easier written because I can't help but feel the knots in my stomach and tears rolling as I face all of the chaos that is my life with its uncertainty. The pain is REAL and I am praying through it all because HEY I am human and imperfect and scared. I have been doing a new thing this year and must stick with it and believe that ALL of this is for a reason and that it could be because I have not learned what has needed to be changed or lacked motivation to change what needs to be changed. I have asked that God take over and interceed so, here I am. Praying it all out because it's what I do and sharing it all.. pretty much baring it all, naked, daily so that nothing is hidden and all that remains is truth. In clear voice I pray because I know that I am broken and it's okay. As the day draws near to the date that we must stand in court again to hear the decision of the judge I pray that we move ASAP into the home that is near the ### location so that we CAN for once instead of dream that we can. This would bring such a peace to our lives knowing that the new beginning is finally here for us to share together and sing praises because of answered prayer. In Jesus Christ name... Amen.
