We hear the anguish in your heart, and we stand with you in this deep struggle, lifting you before the throne of grace. Your pain is real, and your questions are heavy, but we want you to know that God sees you, hears you, and holds you even in this storm. The testing you endured was not just difficult—it was evil, and the enemy sought to destroy you. But we declare that what the enemy meant for harm, God can turn for your good (Genesis 50:20). You are not forgotten, and your cries have not gone unnoticed.
First, we must address the weight of unforgiveness you carry—not just toward those who harmed you, but even toward God. It is understandable to wrestle with anger when we feel abandoned or betrayed, but we must gently remind you that God is not the author of evil. He permits trials, yes, but He does not delight in our suffering (Lamentations 3:33). The evil done to you was the work of the enemy, and God’s heart breaks with yours. Yet, He allows suffering because this world is fallen, and He uses even the darkest moments to refine us, draw us closer to Him, and display His glory (Romans 8:28). This does not mean the pain was deserved or that God is indifferent—it means He is sovereign, even over the chaos.
You ask how such evil could be allowed to happen to a child of God. The truth is, we live in a broken world where the enemy still roams like a lion, seeking whom he may devour (1 Peter 5:8). But we must never forget that God’s power is greater, and He will one day wipe away every tear (Revelation 21:4). Until then, He calls us to trust Him—not blindly, but with the knowledge that He is good, even when life is not. Your struggle with surrender is not a failure; it is a battle, and battles are fought one step at a time. God is not demanding perfection from you—He is asking for your heart, even in its brokenness.
We must also address the spiritual warfare you are facing. The depth of the evil you describe is not of God, and we rebuke every lie of the enemy that seeks to keep you in bondage. The enemy wants you to believe that God has abandoned you, that your pain is meaningless, and that surrender is weakness. But we declare that God is your refuge (Psalm 46:1), your strength, and your deliverer. The enemy has no power over you that Christ has not already conquered (Colossians 2:15). You are not trapped—you are being fought for.
Now, let us pray for you:
Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts, lifting up our brother/sister who is weary and broken. Lord, You see the depth of their pain, the weight of their questions, and the battle raging in their spirit. We ask that You would draw near to them in this moment, that they would feel Your presence like never before. Father, we rebuke the spirit of despair and anger that seeks to keep them from You. We declare that You are their healer, their peace, and their strength.
Lord, we ask that You would soften their heart toward You. Help them to release the burden of unforgiveness—not because what happened was okay, but because You have called us to forgive as we have been forgiven (Colossians 3:13). Give them the grace to trust You again, even when they do not understand. Remind them that You are not a distant God, but One who weeps with them (John 11:35) and who has promised to never leave them nor forsake them (Hebrews 13:5).
Father, we ask for a breakthrough in their spirit. Break the chains of torment and fear that have held them captive. Renew their mind with Your truth, and fill them with Your peace that surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7). Lord, we ask that You would restore their joy, their hope, and their faith. Help them to see that this trial, as painful as it has been, is not the end of their story. You are writing a testimony of Your faithfulness, even in the darkest chapters.
We pray for physical and emotional healing as well. Touch every part of them that is weary and worn. Strengthen their body, their mind, and their spirit. Give them the courage to take the next step, even when it feels impossible. And Lord, if there are areas where they need to seek godly counsel or accountability, we ask that You would lead them to the right people.
Finally, Father, we ask that You would use their pain for Your glory. Let their story be a testament to Your faithfulness, Your healing, and Your power to redeem even the most broken places. We trust You to complete the work You have begun in them (Philippians 1:6). In the mighty name of Jesus, we pray. Amen.
We want to encourage you to keep pressing into God, even when it feels like you are taking two steps back for every step forward. The fact that you are still wrestling with Him is a sign that your faith is not dead—it is alive, and God honors that. He is not afraid of your questions or your anger. He can handle it. What He cannot do is force you to trust Him. That is a choice you must make, day by day, moment by moment.
Consider spending time in the Psalms, where David and others poured out their raw emotions before God—anger, despair, confusion, and ultimately, trust. Psalm 13, Psalm 22, and Psalm 73 are just a few that may resonate with you. God does not expect you to have it all together. He simply asks that you come to Him as you are.
If you have not already, we also encourage you to seek out a trusted pastor, counselor, or mature believer who can walk with you through this. You do not have to carry this burden alone. God often uses His people to bring healing and restoration.
Lastly, we want to gently remind you that your relationship with God is not based on your ability to trust Him perfectly. It is based on what Jesus did for you on the cross. When you feel like you are failing, remember that His grace is sufficient (2 Corinthians 12:9). You are not defined by your struggle—you are defined by His love for you.
Keep fighting, dear one. The enemy wants you to give up, but God is calling you to press in. You are not trapped. You are being transformed. And one day, you will look back and see how God used this season to draw you closer to Him than you ever thought possible.
INJC
