seanathon
Prayer Warrior
When I first went to college, I was happy. I had been through some traumatic times which I will not say what they were. The time was right then for me to be at college, and I enjoyed work and friends. College was not always easy, but it was obvious that I was to be there at Redlands, and I enjoyed recovering and not only recovering but in many times thriving and having a lot of fun, restful sleep, and a good work ethic, as well as respect for the people and the campus. I did my work dutifully and considerately and tried to be a good friend to all I met. I met a lovely group called Intervarsity on campus and made some truly extraordinary friends. I really miss college, but not just college; I miss the attitude and the respect that I had toward it. It was as if God was giving me a second chance. I really need people to pray for the hope and goodwill that I had at college. I need people to pray that I could approach life with the same joy and enthusiasm and willingness to heal like I did when entering college. I got incredibly nervous when returning home here from college. I had just been poisoned by a drug that had been given to me that was supposed to get me away from some mild anxiety that I was having about leaving school and going back to my house, a place that there was still some worried residuals from the aftermath of high school. I just want to pray that I do not repeat any high school stuff anymore and that I can get to a place of respect, peace, and hope like I did at Redlands. I was shown great love and mercy at Redlands, and I know Jesus still loves me and still wishes that great love and mercy for me. I have been really struggling for a few reasons here they are:
1. The medicine for anxiety ended up not agreeing with my body. I had a severe episode of depression, and the results of the medicine left me in a very messed-up state, causing my teachers' alarm and concern. I spent the rest of that year fixing the mess-ups of that medicine, and I want to forgive myself for that incident and my psychiatrist who prescribed that medicine. I'm bringing this up because I really love my parents and family, but this medicine caused me to say some very hurtful things from a place that wasn't who I was. At first, I broke down and cried, telling her how much I wanted our relationship to go back to how it had been before the high school incident, which is true; I really do. Amen, but then the medicine played on my fears, and anyway, long story short, I angered everyone in my family greatly, but they love me and forgave me. I ask for healing with my relationship with my mom. I called my mother a witch, for forgiveness and mercy and help forgiving myself and to appreciate this beautiful day and to respect my family like I was a joyous kid in Ireland just happy to be alive and interact with people. Amen. I would ask for your prayers to come true to safeguard the loving child in me that loves this family and house and would never want harm or disrespect for any of them or myself, and I ask that Jesus would pick and guide me into calm and rest. Amen, and help me to let go of judgment or persecution that I have had. I really appreciate you guys praying for me, and I ask that you would affirm prayers that were said for me at California Island when people prayed for me, and I felt the warmth of Christ and the Holy Spirit heal my body and nerves during a time of great concern at college. Those times are very precious to me, and I want them to come back to me and to respect calmly the people in my life. I am asking for help approaching the world and life with the same joy and enthusiasm, to throw off any negativity, projection, or delusion, and again respect Love and life again in Jesus. Amen. I am asking that these real issues of fear, and that I can ask Jesus for trust and hope as I get away from those painful times of delusion and medical failure to pray again and believe that I am being guided into a happy, loving life in Jesus Christ's name. I pray. Amen.
1. The medicine for anxiety ended up not agreeing with my body. I had a severe episode of depression, and the results of the medicine left me in a very messed-up state, causing my teachers' alarm and concern. I spent the rest of that year fixing the mess-ups of that medicine, and I want to forgive myself for that incident and my psychiatrist who prescribed that medicine. I'm bringing this up because I really love my parents and family, but this medicine caused me to say some very hurtful things from a place that wasn't who I was. At first, I broke down and cried, telling her how much I wanted our relationship to go back to how it had been before the high school incident, which is true; I really do. Amen, but then the medicine played on my fears, and anyway, long story short, I angered everyone in my family greatly, but they love me and forgave me. I ask for healing with my relationship with my mom. I called my mother a witch, for forgiveness and mercy and help forgiving myself and to appreciate this beautiful day and to respect my family like I was a joyous kid in Ireland just happy to be alive and interact with people. Amen. I would ask for your prayers to come true to safeguard the loving child in me that loves this family and house and would never want harm or disrespect for any of them or myself, and I ask that Jesus would pick and guide me into calm and rest. Amen, and help me to let go of judgment or persecution that I have had. I really appreciate you guys praying for me, and I ask that you would affirm prayers that were said for me at California Island when people prayed for me, and I felt the warmth of Christ and the Holy Spirit heal my body and nerves during a time of great concern at college. Those times are very precious to me, and I want them to come back to me and to respect calmly the people in my life. I am asking for help approaching the world and life with the same joy and enthusiasm, to throw off any negativity, projection, or delusion, and again respect Love and life again in Jesus. Amen. I am asking that these real issues of fear, and that I can ask Jesus for trust and hope as I get away from those painful times of delusion and medical failure to pray again and believe that I am being guided into a happy, loving life in Jesus Christ's name. I pray. Amen.
