Rico
Beloved Servant
Please keep praying that I won't give up and that I won't be tormented with conflicting and defeating thoughts, feelings and different kinds of directions (which I know is not from God). He is not the author of confusion but I confess I'm often confused. I am so disturbed in my spirit and only have peace when I've been in His presence for a while praying. It still feels like intense spiritual warfare and that the enemy is putting up a huge fight and resistance for some reason. My ### is still as hard-hearted as before (according to my little ###'s ### who sees her once a week for a couple hours). He told her to think about her daughter as he can tell she is suffering a lot from the separation (having more of a parent relationship with her ### than her mother who due to her borderline behavior cannot provide a safe and nurturing environment) but she refuses. Please continue to pray for a breakthrough in this area but also for a breakthrough in the area of salvation (my ###, my ###, my ###). Please also pray and join me in asking God what I should do on a practical level. My ### suggested I contact the ### again to see if I have any recourse if I go it alone (my ### and my ###'s ### are scared and don't want to rock the boat to avoid more backlash and more hurt for my ###) or if this might make it worse or if I should go to my ### and apologize for reporting her behavior and just make it sound like it was a big mistake on my part. When praying about it I feel a check in my spirit and like God is still saying to me "wait on me" but I also don't want to remain idle when I could do something and the voice I'm hearing telling me to wait might not be God's after all. Sorry Father, that I'm in this state of confusion and doubt. I pray you help me out of it. Help ### now please. She is so little and has no explanation for why this is happening to her and made to think we don't care anymore and have abandoned her when the opposite is true but we can't tell her that because my ### won't let us.
