Anonymous
Beloved of All
I ask for the grace to accept the things I cannot change, to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. I was soooo happy as a child and loved the Lord. He was so good to me, I wanted these things for my child, but didn't know how to go about getting him to heaven. I was young and afraid and would run out of church, saying over and over, I don't know what to do, how do I live this life? I had no clue what to do, but did a lot of sinful things. Foolish. Then I read The Word and was full of joy and power, which then went again back to fearfulness (felt everyone was against me/paranoia/visions) - overwhelming. I was fearful of God and hell and the future to a point of teeth chattering and inability to sleep. I held onto my bible and shook. I had a breakdown and hallucinated. It ruined me& those around me. I was so fearful. I would like to say this is a joke, but it was not. I am telling the truth. God is love and good and I needed to keep that, but all my eyes could see was hell. ALL consuming fear of gnashing of teeth until I snapped. The Lord is My Shepherd, I shall not want was my life before this. Please pray for me and those in my family. All I could see was an impossible situation with no one on my side so I nearly died from fear because I could see all of those around me not in Christ and did not know how to relay the message of Good News when I was overcome with fear. Salvation is serious. God, in your mercy, please have mercy. Restore and heal what I have destroyed. Break through my eyes and block head of hope and those in my family too. I was doing so good for a while. Living mercy. Alive, really alive. Fully alive. Real hope and joy. Help me and suffering souls, amen.
