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Timeless
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This request is about getting that something special out of myself. i've had these unusual moments where i have had a strong feeling about there's something big abstrack mind which i have come close to understanding. Most of the time of my life i've been feeling that i live in constant regression whitch stops me from showing people including myself what im really capable of. Im trying not to seem like egoistic or narsistic but i'm having this moment right now and i have this vision in my head whitch i've been going thru times and times again. I have really bad lack of selfreliance and i thing that if i somehow increase that element in my life and could integrate that succession with my potential i will conquer my dreams eventually. i just can't sometimes believe how many opportunities i have missed in my life and im trying to get forward. It's hard i know for everyone sometimes but for someone it's just too close of a lifestyle to feel strong and capable but still it's hit's your face hard everytime. This feeling i mentioned when i have it i remember everyting i have been reading, learning it's like i just got it but why i didn't got it when i really had been needing it?! i mean in exams etc. They say that humans use in average 10% of their brainpotential. When i got this feelings i just think that i have some extra gear going on and i wonder where the hell has it been hiding for all my life.. I want to leave this prayerrequest for everybody who has lack of selfesteem, i wish you guys make it whatever your dreaming and me too! It's like i've been living in prison of my own mind for whole my life and i want to go out and see things clearly and perspectives i havent got a chance yet. sorry for probaply typing errors my native language is as exotic as finnish
