1956sinner
Beloved
This has been an interesting year for me. Many lessons learned and I’m sure many lessons coming up to teach me more. Over the past 18 months I’ve been in a lot of pain due to a shoulder injury which was sustained on the job. It didn’t seem serious, but after physical therapy, drug therapy, and surgery I’m still experiencing enough pain to prevent me from sleeping more than an hour or two at a time, simple tasks (bathing, cooking, dressing myself, housework, walking the dogs, driving, cooking and going to work) have become more difficult, primarily due to the chronic pain, the loss of strength, and a diminished range of motion. Accompanying this chronic pain I’m finding I am far less tolerant of people and the way the think and do things, I’m more prone to be grumpy and easily irritated, and quite frankly I’d rather spend time with my dogs than time with people (family or friends). I don’t like what I’ve become. I truly believe it’s taken a toll on my health. I’ve gained weight, I don’t exercise, and I always feel like I’m coming down with some type of cold or flu. Making it seem even worse there doesn’t appear to be a light at the end of the tunnel (at this point I don’t even know if I’ve reached the half-way point). I’ve read that people experiencing chronic pain are more susceptible to serious illness (something to do with the immune system not working as well as it should or could). That, coupled with an overactive imagination and there are times when I convince myself I’ve contracted some terrible and incurable disease, which causes me to worry, which adds more stress. That too I’m told can make one more susceptible to various types of cancer, etc. The worst part of it is the simple fact that I know my Heavenly Father has it all under control. I know He has a plan for me. And I trust, if it is His Will, I will be healed (in His Time). Pray for me and ask God to help me simply trust that He has everything under control. I ask this in Jesus Name. Amen.
