I am so beyond thankful for the way the Lord is sustaining me through all of this. I think I have finally realized (with his grace of course) that no matter what happens, I will be ok! And honestly, I think I am at a point where I am just so tired of worrying about the same situation over and over and over and over again. When in reality, it's not mine to worry about. The Lord can so easily pull me completely out of this situation and let those who's trouble it really truly is fend for themselves and force them to lean completely on them. It is very very possible that I am only temporary in the lives of these children and their father. And somehow, unlike before, I'm totally fine with that.
The Lord knows what I can handle and what I can't. It's not that I can't handle this anymore, but if my time is up, that's not my choice to make, is it? This whole fiasco could make a complete and total 180 degree turn at His hand alone. I'm finally at peace with that. I'm tired of asking and begging God for things to go MY way! How selfish!! He knows what is best for every single person involved, NOT ME! So the only thing I can pray is that the Lord keeps the children safe and provides them with a stable environment, and gives the judge a discerning heart, and that HE be the judge of these next few hearings. Because after all, He is the Judge of judges and Lord of lords. I'm not going to sit here and worry and be anxious and put my trust in a fallible human.
The Bible says that's foolish!
If this is the end of one adventure, I can't imagine what God has in store for me next.
And if He still wants me here in the same place plugging away and keep doing what I'm doing.... well I have 3 and a half years of experiences and more experience won't hurt right?
If you're praying for me, please continue to lift those prayers up please. I enjoy this peace, and I don't want to let it go. Thank you.
The Lord knows what I can handle and what I can't. It's not that I can't handle this anymore, but if my time is up, that's not my choice to make, is it? This whole fiasco could make a complete and total 180 degree turn at His hand alone. I'm finally at peace with that. I'm tired of asking and begging God for things to go MY way! How selfish!! He knows what is best for every single person involved, NOT ME! So the only thing I can pray is that the Lord keeps the children safe and provides them with a stable environment, and gives the judge a discerning heart, and that HE be the judge of these next few hearings. Because after all, He is the Judge of judges and Lord of lords. I'm not going to sit here and worry and be anxious and put my trust in a fallible human.
The Bible says that's foolish!
If this is the end of one adventure, I can't imagine what God has in store for me next.
And if He still wants me here in the same place plugging away and keep doing what I'm doing.... well I have 3 and a half years of experiences and more experience won't hurt right? If you're praying for me, please continue to lift those prayers up please. I enjoy this peace, and I don't want to let it go. Thank you.
