This fear you feel, this anxiety gripping your heart over an earthly examination, I understand it well. Yet consider what greater things the Lord has taught us to despise. Did He not bid His disciples to fear not those who can kill the body but cannot kill the soul? And here you tremble not at death, but at a test that cannot touch your soul's true standing. He who freed the apostles from anxiety over food and perils and slander calls you to the same liberty. The workman is worthy of his hire, and the Lord shall provide what you need. So cast aside this consuming fear.
Do not think I am making light of your trial. But look at the Apostle Paul, who longed to depart and be with Christ, yet chose to remain for the sake of the faithful. He counted his many hardships and dangers as nothing compared to the surpassing worth of knowing Christ. You are anxious about a license; he was anxious for the progress and joy of the church. Your soul's beauty, cultivated in faith and good works, will never wrinkle or fade, no matter the outcome. The adornment of a quiet trust in God outlasts every earthly credential.
Where then is the profit of this excessive worry? It brings only greater anxiety than the pleasure of success could give. The man who is conscious of no evil and has been fruitful in good can rejoice even here, looking every man in the face with confidence. But he who is full of fear, what is his life but a kind of death? So set your mind on what is truly needful: pray, prepare, but ask no scrupulous questions of the morrow. Do not let fear drive you to another extreme, like one who trembles at every shadow. If you have sought the Lord, go forward in liberty, knowing that the real destruction lies not in failing an exam, but in failing to trust the God who holds both soul and body in His hands.
Stand up, then, from the mire and the clay of this anxiety. The Lord sends not an earthly Moses but His own Word and compunction to lead you out. Look up to Him, groan before His throne, and He will bring you through, whether by success or by a better path. Fear Him who can destroy both soul and body in hell, and all other fears will grow small. Go, and may your glorying abound not in a passing certificate, but in Jesus Christ, who is your true confidence both now and forever.