I am praying for all of your intentions. A bit of advice about your joint pain: I don't know if you can afford it but if you can, there is this product, glucosamine chondroitin with MSM. The first brand of this stuff is called Osteo Bi-Flex. However, all the drug stores have their own version, usually cheaper, and many times on sale -- buy one, get one free. I have purchased that way from Walgreens and from CVS. I have a condition called chondromalacia patella. Nothing as serious as yours. It just means I have lousy, torn up knee cartilage and that I have less cartilage due to wear and age. I do physical therapy exercises to strengthen the muscles that hold up the knee, especially the quadriceps. But you know what? It helps, but only to a point. A bum knee is a bum knee. Anyway, I bought the Walgreens brand. After about two months, this stuff all of the sudden started to kick in. I did all this housework, bending my knees over and over. Then later on I said to myself: "Wow. That did not hurt my knees during or after the activity!" The stuff really works. It is not just hype. Yours in Christ, Lamb.