Dear God,
I am writing You this letter to tell You that You are awesome. I cannot get over all of the marvelous things You have done for little ol' me. I was such a screw up but You didn't care. You loved me exactly the way I am. However, You did not like the fact that I was broken and messing up, so You have been healing and changing me. It is brilliant, God, to hear Your voice. It is brilliant when You tell me to stop destructive behaviors and to stop seeking things that hurt me.
I had always thought that I was "not able to do school." Some times I still think that. I've had attention issues since elementary school and couldn't concentrate if I heard people moving in their chairs or the sound of pencils either writing or erasing. Mild dyslexia has also caused reading and memory problems--mixing words, letters, and numbers around. Thus, I had written off school, but You told me to go back. I cannot believe that I made straight A's so far, and so I thank You for that. I know it is all You because every following semester it had seemed more like the end of my academic world was imminent, but somehow You helped me through it all.
I was really terrified recently about this semester. I do not have passing grades on several of the tests I took. I have been feeling upset with myself, but Lord You took away the anxiety. I know that You are going to teach me discipline and help me to conquer this school thing. I thank You!
God, I am so exceedingly thankful that You healed my mama. I am even thankful that I went through that trial of my mom having cancer. You used it to teach me things and draw me closer to You, and when I finally stopped complaining to You about how unfair it was, her blood tests came back clean.
God, You are awesome. If You never gave us anything else in our lives, You have already given us more than we could ever deserve.
I cannot believe that You would seek me when I was lost and cursing You. When I hated Christians and decided that of all religions that "Christianity is definitely not the one that is true" and became an angry agnostic, You still continued to whisper to me. You never forced Yourself on me, but You continued to seek me. I do not deserve the love and patience that You had with me. All my memories of all the times You were revealing Yourself to me, even in the past before I acknowledged You, flood back to me and I cannot help but feel amazed. I thank You for all those times that You never gave up on me.
God, I cannot help but feel thankful for the day You showed me who Jesus is. That day I finally understood why He was important and what He actually did on the cross. It all seemed like nonsense until that day of revelation and that wave of Your presence that You showered on me.
I am thankful for the day that Jesus came to tell me that I am forgiven and to go and sin no more.
I am thankful that even in my willful rebellion after I knew You were real, You did not cast me out and instead You disciplined me because You will never allow me to get lost again. Father, I was wicked towards You, but You never rejected me. You are wonderful.
Lord, I am thankful for Your presence and Your voice. I am thankful that before I knew You I had continuously heard voices telling me that I am a failure and should just give up, but that now I don't hear those voices continuously and hear Yours instead. I am thankful that You keep telling me that You love me and that I mean so much to You. I am thankful that You make me feel like I have purpose even if I do not accomplish great things for people to see. I can feel important doing things that no one sees because You are happy with me, and I can feel when You are pleased because of the joy welling up in my soul.
God You are amazing. Thank You for being my reason to live, even through pain and disappointments. Thank You that I am slowly seeing that Your presence eclipses everything that I feel like I lack. I thank You that I have everything in You. Hallelujah!
Respectfully, Your daughter who deserves nothing but has received more than I could have ever bargained for,
Elizabeth
I am writing You this letter to tell You that You are awesome. I cannot get over all of the marvelous things You have done for little ol' me. I was such a screw up but You didn't care. You loved me exactly the way I am. However, You did not like the fact that I was broken and messing up, so You have been healing and changing me. It is brilliant, God, to hear Your voice. It is brilliant when You tell me to stop destructive behaviors and to stop seeking things that hurt me.
I had always thought that I was "not able to do school." Some times I still think that. I've had attention issues since elementary school and couldn't concentrate if I heard people moving in their chairs or the sound of pencils either writing or erasing. Mild dyslexia has also caused reading and memory problems--mixing words, letters, and numbers around. Thus, I had written off school, but You told me to go back. I cannot believe that I made straight A's so far, and so I thank You for that. I know it is all You because every following semester it had seemed more like the end of my academic world was imminent, but somehow You helped me through it all.
I was really terrified recently about this semester. I do not have passing grades on several of the tests I took. I have been feeling upset with myself, but Lord You took away the anxiety. I know that You are going to teach me discipline and help me to conquer this school thing. I thank You!
God, I am so exceedingly thankful that You healed my mama. I am even thankful that I went through that trial of my mom having cancer. You used it to teach me things and draw me closer to You, and when I finally stopped complaining to You about how unfair it was, her blood tests came back clean.
God, You are awesome. If You never gave us anything else in our lives, You have already given us more than we could ever deserve.
I cannot believe that You would seek me when I was lost and cursing You. When I hated Christians and decided that of all religions that "Christianity is definitely not the one that is true" and became an angry agnostic, You still continued to whisper to me. You never forced Yourself on me, but You continued to seek me. I do not deserve the love and patience that You had with me. All my memories of all the times You were revealing Yourself to me, even in the past before I acknowledged You, flood back to me and I cannot help but feel amazed. I thank You for all those times that You never gave up on me.
God, I cannot help but feel thankful for the day You showed me who Jesus is. That day I finally understood why He was important and what He actually did on the cross. It all seemed like nonsense until that day of revelation and that wave of Your presence that You showered on me.
I am thankful for the day that Jesus came to tell me that I am forgiven and to go and sin no more.
I am thankful that even in my willful rebellion after I knew You were real, You did not cast me out and instead You disciplined me because You will never allow me to get lost again. Father, I was wicked towards You, but You never rejected me. You are wonderful.
Lord, I am thankful for Your presence and Your voice. I am thankful that before I knew You I had continuously heard voices telling me that I am a failure and should just give up, but that now I don't hear those voices continuously and hear Yours instead. I am thankful that You keep telling me that You love me and that I mean so much to You. I am thankful that You make me feel like I have purpose even if I do not accomplish great things for people to see. I can feel important doing things that no one sees because You are happy with me, and I can feel when You are pleased because of the joy welling up in my soul.
God You are amazing. Thank You for being my reason to live, even through pain and disappointments. Thank You that I am slowly seeing that Your presence eclipses everything that I feel like I lack. I thank You that I have everything in You. Hallelujah!
Respectfully, Your daughter who deserves nothing but has received more than I could have ever bargained for,
Elizabeth
