We are deeply concerned for your spiritual and mental well-being, and we urge you to turn fully to Jesus Christ, who alone can bring true peace, healing, and deliverance from the darkness you are describing. The things you have mentioned—hearing voices, anxiety tied to sinful behavior, and a fixation on death—are not of God but are signs of spiritual oppression and the consequences of unrepentant sin. Let us address these matters with the truth of Scripture and the power of prayer in Jesus’ name.
First, we must rebuking the sin that has opened the door to this torment in your life. The viewing and sharing of hentai, especially that which involves the depiction of underage characters, is a grave sin in the sight of God. It is a form of lust, which Jesus warns defiles a person from within (Mark 7:20-23). The Bible is clear that sexual immorality—including pornography—has no place in the life of a believer. Ephesians 5:3-5 says, *"But sexual immorality, and all uncleanness, or covetousness, let it not even be mentioned among you, as becomes saints; nor filthiness, nor foolish talking, nor jesting, which are not appropriate; but rather giving of thanks. Know this for sure, that no sexually immoral person, nor unclean person, nor covetous man, who is an idolater, has any inheritance in the Kingdom of Christ and God."* You have confessed this sin, but confession alone is not enough—you must repent, which means turning away from this behavior completely and seeking God’s forgiveness through Jesus Christ. There is no freedom in continuing in sin; true freedom comes only through repentance and surrender to Christ.
The anxiety and auditory hallucinations you describe are not from God. The enemy, Satan, seeks to accuse, torment, and destroy (Revelation 12:10, John 10:10), and unrepentant sin gives him a foothold in your life (Ephesians 4:27). However, greater is He who is in you than he who is in the world (1 John 4:4). You must renounce these sins and command the enemy to flee in the name of Jesus. James 4:7 says, *"Be subject therefore to God. But resist the devil, and he will flee from you."* Do not entertain these voices or the lies they speak. Instead, fill your mind with the Word of God and pray for His protection over your thoughts. Philippians 4:6-7 tells us, *"In nothing be anxious, but in everything, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus."*
We also notice that while you mentioned "Jesus Christ" in your request, there was no clear acknowledgment of His lordship or salvation in your life. True peace and freedom come only through a personal relationship with Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior. If you have not surrendered your life to Him, we urge you to do so now. Romans 10:9 says, *"that if you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved."* There is no other name by which we can be saved (Acts 4:12), and it is only through Jesus that we have access to the Father (John 14:6). If you have already accepted Christ, then you must walk in obedience to Him, turning away from all sin and seeking His strength to overcome temptation.
As for your mention of the veterans’ casualty lists, we understand that you may be grieving the loss of life and the brokenness of this world. War and death are consequences of sin entering the world (Romans 5:12), and our hearts should indeed be moved with compassion for those who have suffered. However, fixating on death—especially in a way that seems compulsive—can be spiritually dangerous and may open the door to further oppression. Instead, lift these souls up in prayer, trusting that God is just and merciful. Psalm 116:15 says, *"Precious in Yahweh’s sight is the death of his saints."* But for those who do not know Christ, we must pray for their salvation and trust in God’s sovereignty. Your focus should be on the living hope we have in Christ, not on the darkness of death.
We also want to address your comment about hoping "Jesus doesn’t persecute" but allows freedom. This reveals a misunderstanding of God’s character. Jesus does not "persecute," but He is holy and just, and He calls His followers to holiness (1 Peter 1:15-16). Freedom in Christ is not freedom to sin; it is freedom *from* sin (Romans 6:18). Galatians 5:13 says, *"Don’t use your freedom for gain to the flesh, but through love be servants to one another."* True freedom is found in obedience to Christ, not in indulging the desires of the flesh.
Now, let us pray for you with urgency and authority in the name of Jesus:
Heavenly Father, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, lifting up this precious soul who is caught in the snares of the enemy. Lord, we ask that You break every chain of sin, anxiety, and spiritual oppression that has bound them. Father, convict their heart of the gravity of their sin, and grant them godly sorrow that leads to repentance (2 Corinthians 7:10). Let them turn away from the darkness of pornography and any other unrighteousness, and let them run to the cross of Christ, where true forgiveness and cleansing are found (1 John 1:9).
Lord Jesus, we rebuke every demonic voice and spirit of fear, anxiety, and torment that is afflicting this person. By the authority of Your name, we command these spirits to flee and never return. Fill them instead with Your Holy Spirit, who brings peace, soundness of mind, and the power to overcome temptation. Father, we ask that You guard their mind and heart in Christ Jesus, and let them meditate on whatever is true, honorable, just, pure, lovely, and commendable (Philippians 4:8).
Lord, if this person has not yet surrendered their life to You, we pray that today would be the day of salvation. Let them confess Jesus as Lord and believe in their heart that You raised Him from the dead. Wash them clean, Father, and make them a new creation in Christ (2 Corinthians 5:17). If they have already accepted Christ but have fallen into sin, restore them, Lord. Let them experience the joy of Your salvation and the strength to walk in righteousness (Psalm 51:12).
We also lift up their mind, Father. Heal any mental or emotional brokenness, and let them find their identity and security in You alone. Break the power of any generational curses, ungodly soul ties, or strongholds that have given the enemy access to their life. Let them walk in the freedom and victory that Christ has already won on the cross.
Finally, Lord, we pray for Your peace to flood their heart—a peace that surpasses all understanding. Let them fix their eyes on You, the author and finisher of their faith (Hebrews 12:2), and not on the darkness of this world. Use them, Father, as a vessel for Your glory, and let their story be a testimony of Your redeeming power.
We ask all these things in the mighty and holy name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior. Amen.
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We strongly encourage you to take the following steps immediately:
1. **Repent and turn away from all sin**, especially the viewing or sharing of pornography. Destroy any ungodly materials and remove all access to them. Install accountability software if needed, and seek help from a trusted Christian mentor or pastor.
2. **Fill your mind with Scripture**. Read the Bible daily, starting with the Gospels and the book of Psalms. Memorize verses that combat temptation and fear, such as 1 Corinthians 10:13, 2 Timothy 1:7, and Psalm 23.
3. **Seek godly counsel**. Find a Bible-believing church or Christian counselor who can walk with you through this battle. You do not have to fight alone.
4. **Pray continually**. Stay in constant communication with God, asking Him for strength and protection. Pray specifically against the spirits of fear, lust, and torment, and declare the victory of Christ over your life.
5. **Guard your heart and mind**. Avoid anything that feeds anxiety or ungodly thoughts, including certain media, music, or conversations. Replace them with worship, prayer, and edifying content.
Remember, the battle is the Lord’s, and He has already won the victory. You are not defined by your sins or your struggles, but by the blood of Jesus Christ, which cleanses you from all unrighteousness. Walk in that truth, and do not let the enemy steal another moment of your life. We are standing with you in prayer and believe that God will bring you into a place of complete freedom and restoration in Him. Stay strong in the Lord, and never give up. He is faithful!
