We hear your heart, dear brother in Christ, and we join you in seeking the Lord’s wisdom, provision, and direction for your life. Your desire to grow in discipline, study, and spiritual maturity is commendable, and we recognize the sincerity of your faith as you lean on Jesus for rest and providence. However, we must also speak truth in love, addressing areas where your thoughts and requests may need realignment with Scripture.
First, we must address your desire to acquire stimulant ADHD medication. While we understand the struggle with focus and the temptation to seek a quick solution, we urge you to seek the Lord’s guidance in this matter with great caution. The Bible warns us about relying on substances or earthly solutions to address spiritual or mental battles. In Proverbs 3:5-6, we are told, *"Trust in Yahweh with all your heart, and don’t lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."* Instead of seeking medication as a first resort, we encourage you to seek godly counsel—perhaps from a pastor, biblical counselor, or a medical professional who shares your faith and values—to discern whether this is truly the Lord’s will for you. Prayer, fasting, and discipline are powerful tools, but they must be paired with wisdom and accountability.
Your commitment to fasting during Lent is a beautiful act of devotion, but we must gently correct the "magical" thinking that completing a 40-day fast will automatically transport you to a "new life." Fasting is not a transaction with God or a way to manipulate His will. It is a spiritual discipline meant to draw us closer to Him, humble our hearts, and align our desires with His. Jesus Himself fasted for 40 days, but His focus was on communion with the Father, not on earning a reward. In Matthew 4:4, He said, *"Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceeds out of the mouth of God."* The "new life" you seek is already found in Christ—through repentance, faith, and daily surrender to His will. It is not a sudden escape but a lifelong journey of transformation.
We also want to address your thoughts about starting your own church. While the desire to serve God is noble, the Bible is clear that spiritual leadership requires maturity, wisdom, and accountability. In 1 Timothy 3:6, Paul warns that an overseer must *"not be a new convert, lest being puffed up he fall into the same condemnation as the devil."* Your humility in recognizing your immaturity is a sign of wisdom, and we encourage you to grow in your faith under the mentorship of godly leaders before considering such a weighty responsibility. The church is the body of Christ, and it thrives when built on the foundation of Scripture, not on the ambitions of one individual.
Your situation—being unemployed, not driving, and dependent on your family—is not a sign of failure but an opportunity to trust God’s provision. In Matthew 6:25-26, Jesus tells us, *"Therefore I tell you, don’t be anxious for your life: what you will eat, or what you will drink; nor yet for your body, what you will wear. Isn’t life more than food, and the body more than clothing? See the birds of the air, that they don’t sow, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns. Your heavenly Father feeds them. Aren’t you of much more value than they?"* Your "rent-free rest" is not a coincidence; it is God’s grace allowing you the time to seek Him, study His Word, and grow in discipline. But we must also encourage you to seek His will for your next steps—whether that is finding employment, learning to drive, or pursuing education in a way that honors Him.
Your desire to move to Japan, while adventurous, must be weighed against the practical and spiritual realities. Proverbs 19:21 says, *"There are many plans in a man’s heart, but Yahweh’s counsel will prevail."* If this is truly God’s calling for you, He will make a way—providing language skills, resources, and confirmation through His Word and godly counsel. Until then, we encourage you to focus on stewarding the opportunities He has already given you.
Finally, we must address your mention of "thanks, Jesus" without explicitly acknowledging His lordship or the need for repentance and faith in His finished work on the cross. Salvation is found in no other name but Jesus Christ (Acts 4:12), and it is only through His blood that we have access to the Father. If you have not yet surrendered your life fully to Him—confessing your sins, believing in His death and resurrection, and committing to follow Him—we urge you to do so today. In Romans 10:9, we read, *"If you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved."*
Let us pray for you now:
Heavenly Father, we come before You on behalf of our brother, lifting up his heart and his desires to You. Lord, we thank You for Your provision in his life—for the rest, the shelter, and the time to seek You. We ask that You would grant him clarity and wisdom as he navigates his struggles with focus, discipline, and direction. Father, we pray against any reliance on earthly solutions that do not align with Your will. Instead, fill him with Your Holy Spirit, who gives self-control, peace, and perseverance.
Lord, we ask that You would guard his heart from magical thinking or false expectations about fasting or spiritual disciplines. Help him to see that true transformation comes from abiding in You, not from performing rituals. Teach him to fast and pray with a humble heart, seeking Your face above all else.
Father, we pray for his spiritual growth. If it is Your will, raise up godly mentors and leaders in his life who can guide him in wisdom and truth. Protect him from the pride of thinking he must start his own church before he is ready. Instead, let him grow in humility, serving where You have placed him.
Lord, we ask that You would reveal Your will for his future—whether it is employment, education, or even a move to another country. Give him patience to wait on Your timing and faith to trust in Your provision. If he is to stay where he is, help him to steward this season well, growing in discipline, exercise, and study.
Above all, Father, we pray that he would know You more deeply—that he would experience the fullness of life found only in Jesus Christ. If he has not yet fully surrendered to You, we ask that You would draw him close, soften his heart, and lead him to repentance and faith.
We ask all these things in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior. Amen.
Brother, we encourage you to press into God’s Word daily. Start with manageable portions—perhaps a chapter of Proverbs or a Psalm each day—rather than feeling overwhelmed by the size of the Book of Common Prayer. Let Scripture shape your thoughts and desires, and seek accountability from fellow believers. The Christian life is not meant to be walked alone. If you do not have a local church, ask the Lord to lead you to one where you can grow, serve, and be discipled.
Lastly, remember that your worth is not found in your productivity, your plans, or even your spiritual disciplines. Your worth is found in Christ, who loves you unconditionally. Rest in Him, trust in His timing, and let Him guide your steps.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
