We hear the deep pain and frustration in your words, and our hearts ache for the suffering you are enduring. It is clear that you feel betrayed, abandoned, and even mocked by the very faith you once embraced. We want you to know that we are coming before the Lord on your behalf, seeking His mercy, healing, and restoration. The Bible tells us in Psalm 34:18, "The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit." You are not alone in your struggle, and God sees the anguish you are carrying.
First, we must address the way you have spoken about the Lord and His Word. The Bible is not a tool of oppression or a weapon used to harm; it is the living Word of God, given to us as a lamp to our feet and a light to our path (Psalm 119:105). It is meant to bring life, not destruction, and to guide us into truth, not despair. However, we recognize that your experience has led you to feel otherwise, and we do not dismiss the very real pain that has brought you to this place. The enemy seeks to distort our view of God, making Him appear as a tyrant rather than a loving Father. But Scripture assures us in 1 John 4:8 that "God is love," and His desire is for your good, not your harm (Jeremiah 29:11).
We must also gently rebuke the bitterness and resentment that has taken root in your heart. Hebrews 12:15 warns us, "Looking carefully lest anyone fall short of the grace of God; lest any root of bitterness springing up cause trouble, and by this many become defiled." Bitterness will only poison your soul further and keep you from experiencing the peace and freedom that God offers. We pray that you would release this bitterness to the Lord, asking Him to replace it with His healing love.
Your mention of fasting is concerning, as it seems to have been taken to an extreme that is causing physical harm. While fasting is a biblical practice meant to draw us closer to God (Matthew 6:16-18), it should never be used as a form of self-punishment or taken to the point of endangering your health. Your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit (1 Corinthians 6:19-20), and it is important to care for it as an act of stewardship. We encourage you to seek balance and to consult with medical professionals if you are experiencing severe physical symptoms.
The loss of your job, finances, and relationships is devastating, and we grieve with you over these losses. However, we must remind you that God is not the author of these hardships in the way you describe. The enemy comes to steal, kill, and destroy, but Jesus came that we might have life and have it abundantly (John 10:10). The struggles you are facing are not a punishment from God but rather the result of living in a fallen world where sin and brokenness exist. Yet even in this, God promises to work all things together for good for those who love Him (Romans 8:28). We pray that you would cling to this promise, even when it feels impossible to believe.
Your statement about bullying is heartbreaking, and we want to acknowledge the pain of feeling targeted or mistreated by those who claim to follow Christ. The church should be a place of love, acceptance, and safety, not a source of harm. Jesus Himself warned against causing others to stumble (Matthew 18:6), and we are called to love one another as He has loved us (John 13:34). If you have experienced bullying within the church, this is a failure of God’s people, not a failure of God Himself. We pray that you would not let the actions of a few drive you away from the truth of who God is—a God who sees your pain, collects your tears in a bottle (Psalm 56:8), and longs to heal your wounds.
We also want to address the financial struggles you are facing. It is clear that you feel regret over giving away your money, and we understand how overwhelming that must feel. However, we must remind you that God’s economy is not the same as the world’s. In Malachi 3:10, God invites us to test Him in this: "Bring the whole tithe into the storehouse, that there may be food in my house. Test me in this," says the Lord Almighty, "and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that there will not be room enough to store it." While this does not guarantee material wealth, it does promise that God will provide for your needs when you trust Him. We encourage you to seek wise counsel and to ask God to show you how to steward what He has given you in a way that honors Him and meets your needs.
Most importantly, we must address the salvation of your soul. You mentioned Jesus in your closing, but your words reflect a heart that is far from Him. Salvation is not found in religion, church attendance, or even reading the Bible—it is found in a personal relationship with Jesus Christ. Acts 4:12 tells us, "There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given among men by which we must be saved." Jesus died on the cross to pay the penalty for your sins, and He rose again so that you could have eternal life. But this gift must be received by faith. We urge you to examine your heart and to ask God to reveal Himself to you in a fresh way. Repent of any bitterness, anger, or resentment toward Him, and invite Him to be the Lord of your life. Only then will you experience the true peace, providence, and progress that you mentioned in your closing.
Let us pray for you now:
Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts, lifting up this dear one who is hurting and broken. Lord, You see the pain, the confusion, and the bitterness that has taken root in their heart. We ask that You would draw near to them, just as You promise to be near to the brokenhearted. Father, we pray that You would break the chains of bitterness and resentment that have bound them, and replace their heart of stone with a heart of flesh (Ezekiel 36:26). Help them to see You not as a bully or a tyrant, but as the loving Father who gave His only Son so that they might have life.
Lord, we ask for Your healing touch to restore their body, mind, and spirit. If fasting has been taken to an unhealthy extreme, we pray that You would bring wisdom and balance. Provide for their physical needs, Father, and open doors for employment, education, and provision. We ask that You would surround them with godly people who will speak truth in love and walk alongside them in this season.
Father, we also pray for their soul. We ask that You would soften their heart to receive the truth of Your Word and the love of Your Son. If they have never truly surrendered their life to You, we pray that today would be the day of salvation. Break through the lies of the enemy, Lord, and reveal Yourself as the God who heals, restores, and redeems. Help them to see that You are not the source of their pain, but the answer to it.
We rebuke the spirit of despair and hopelessness that has taken hold, and we declare that joy comes in the morning (Psalm 30:5). We speak life over their situation, Lord, and ask that You would turn their mourning into dancing (Psalm 30:11). May they experience Your peace that surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7), and may they come to know You as their Provider, their Healer, and their Savior.
In the mighty name of Jesus, we pray. Amen.
Friend, we want you to know that your pain is valid, and your feelings are real. But we also want you to know that God is bigger than your pain. He is not the author of your suffering, but He is the One who can bring beauty from ashes (Isaiah 61:3). We encourage you to take a step toward Him, even if it is just a small one. Cry out to Him in your anger, your confusion, and your despair—He can handle it. And then listen for His voice, because He is speaking. He is whispering words of love, hope, and restoration over your life. Will you let Him in?
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
